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I might have asked before, but have any of you ever experienced psychosis/interictal psychosis?
I think I've been experiencing a healing process for it, and that I think I have.
I've been experiencing what I'll call an "incremental knowing" since experiencing what I can just describe as the most excruciating and strangest time period I've ever experienced, while in the midst of probably a rapid-cycling TC and psychotic state.
the "incremental knowing" has been just that - that things that are usually known had been set off like a sort of pendulum, and that groups of thoughts relating to closely related thoughts were set in motion too. as these thought-pendulums then have been settling, I have been experiencing a revelation of thinking, and as though things unknown just start to ease themselves incrementally into being a known thing, but without any sort of reference to "it".
I think there is a psychosis that relates to rapid cycling, psychosis in the between parts of seizures, where if the mind gets set off too much, too much mental activity, the seizure state becomes a waking seizure, which then is a type of psychosis.
that waking seizure state is what I'm talking about. the self becomes a non-being of negative self as the ions in the brain are in an inverted polarity while in seizure mode, therefore thinking is inverted.
The inverted thinking then is what I feel I've been easing into realization of, as the ions have been settling back into normal states, and that the thinking that was going on during this time period still adds chemistry to the brain, and that the situations reveal themselves individually as "non-"states of mind, but that the lines of thinking are still there, and these lines of thinking are what takes the mental exertion to comprehend, being anti-conclusions to lines of thinking. the opposite result of what one would normally think.
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I have been writing tons of notes about all of this stuff and don't want to just go on and on becoming a huge annoying post
but have any of you experienced interictal psychosis?
it's even something my epileptologist referenced to me, but very slyly, as being outright and overt about it may very well be the antithesis to the healing process.
I think I've been experiencing a healing process for it, and that I think I have.
I've been experiencing what I'll call an "incremental knowing" since experiencing what I can just describe as the most excruciating and strangest time period I've ever experienced, while in the midst of probably a rapid-cycling TC and psychotic state.
the "incremental knowing" has been just that - that things that are usually known had been set off like a sort of pendulum, and that groups of thoughts relating to closely related thoughts were set in motion too. as these thought-pendulums then have been settling, I have been experiencing a revelation of thinking, and as though things unknown just start to ease themselves incrementally into being a known thing, but without any sort of reference to "it".
I think there is a psychosis that relates to rapid cycling, psychosis in the between parts of seizures, where if the mind gets set off too much, too much mental activity, the seizure state becomes a waking seizure, which then is a type of psychosis.
that waking seizure state is what I'm talking about. the self becomes a non-being of negative self as the ions in the brain are in an inverted polarity while in seizure mode, therefore thinking is inverted.
The inverted thinking then is what I feel I've been easing into realization of, as the ions have been settling back into normal states, and that the thinking that was going on during this time period still adds chemistry to the brain, and that the situations reveal themselves individually as "non-"states of mind, but that the lines of thinking are still there, and these lines of thinking are what takes the mental exertion to comprehend, being anti-conclusions to lines of thinking. the opposite result of what one would normally think.
....
I have been writing tons of notes about all of this stuff and don't want to just go on and on becoming a huge annoying post
but have any of you experienced interictal psychosis?
it's even something my epileptologist referenced to me, but very slyly, as being outright and overt about it may very well be the antithesis to the healing process.