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I read about others' auras and seizures on here. I feel comfort to find that others have experiences like mine. But at times it feels like there is even some type of agency or group of imposters online monitoring my interactions online and that it even has a power to induce seizures in me. Is this type of thinking itself a seizure or aura? When deja or jamais vus hit me it's easy to think "ok I'm having a déjà vu" but I want to rationalize what seems so real and I can tend to rationalize it by thinking the only logical thing: someone has hypnotized me, gives me seizures, and is making events repeat (tv shows (reruns don't help), news events... even the Venus/Jupiter alignment earlier (were they really aligned or was it just a hypnotic suggestion for me to "see" them up there?), making events re-occur to watch my actions, like a lab rat doing the same experiment again and again to give more thorough results
posting this online might even confirm for this group their mission is succeeding but posting things online can be easier than bringing them up with my therapist.
I know a modicum about mental diseases and reading about this type of stuff coming from myself sounds obviously problematic. So I guess it's not completely consuming of my rational thinking. I read and heard a story in the news about a man who is in custody for doing some things, he had talked about aliens and strange things but in his case the ideations obviously controlled his actions and thoughts quite entirely.
(the woman on the bus wearing earbuds must obviously be listening to a text-reader of my typing!)
I just figure that I AM being monitored and live my life like a abeyant and obey-ant CPDRC inmate, and do the daily motions and keep my mouth shut, but my life has no breadth as those in power laugh at their success.
My therapist and I discussed again my options for getting with an epileptologist finally. Who has time for a disease with all of this dance practice? (YouTube "CPDRC Thriller")
I know I've posted on here before about not having an epileptologist yet, that's not a déjà vu.
maybe the déjà vu is about thinking I have posted it before.
why does it seem the more sleep I get the worse it gets?
I don't need any replies. I needed to get this off my chest though.
posting this online might even confirm for this group their mission is succeeding but posting things online can be easier than bringing them up with my therapist.
I know a modicum about mental diseases and reading about this type of stuff coming from myself sounds obviously problematic. So I guess it's not completely consuming of my rational thinking. I read and heard a story in the news about a man who is in custody for doing some things, he had talked about aliens and strange things but in his case the ideations obviously controlled his actions and thoughts quite entirely.
(the woman on the bus wearing earbuds must obviously be listening to a text-reader of my typing!)
I just figure that I AM being monitored and live my life like a abeyant and obey-ant CPDRC inmate, and do the daily motions and keep my mouth shut, but my life has no breadth as those in power laugh at their success.
My therapist and I discussed again my options for getting with an epileptologist finally. Who has time for a disease with all of this dance practice? (YouTube "CPDRC Thriller")
I know I've posted on here before about not having an epileptologist yet, that's not a déjà vu.
maybe the déjà vu is about thinking I have posted it before.
why does it seem the more sleep I get the worse it gets?
I don't need any replies. I needed to get this off my chest though.