Hi there I have just joined. I'm 57 now but my relationship with Epilepsy goes back a long way. I think it was always in me, as a kid I was always blanking out. Began the Grand Mals in my 20s. Reached my early 30s and 200 mgs of Phenytoin brought it under control. For 20 plus years only the odd twinge despite some stressful times. Hell one or two days I even forgot to take the meds. Epilepsy though has a nasty habit of catching you out. Late in 2016 out of the blue I had a grand mal (I had forgotten to take the meds). Neuro raised the Phenytoin to 225mgs. Latter half of 2017 succession of intense partials where I would get an intense aura and be frozen unable to move or communicate. Two further grand mals in September and just before Christmas. In your 20s you bounce back quicker than in your late 50s. Anyway at the moment going through a medication change programme from Phenytoin to Lamotrigine. Finding it hard going every 2 weeks the Lamotrigine goes up 25mgs which knocks you about for a few days then a good week and then the next rise. Due to reach 200mgs on Monday (300mgs the eventual target)the week after they begin to drop the Phenytoin 50mgs a fortnight. Have Clobazam to use as and when. Feel a bit like a drug lab and forget how much Epilepsy can hit you mentally. Anyway looking forward to talking to you guys. There was no internet when I was first diagnosed.