layers of "chemical thinking"

[petero]

since this last seizure on Monday I've been going through periods of what I'll call chemical thinking that seems to be an effect of the recovery process, because it will
anyone else get this? I'll compare it to layers of saran wrap with things written on it and laying layer upon layer of saran wrap - and saran wrap is a good metaphor because of the static cling effect you get with saran wrap

it's a multimedia effect: a "MEANING" envelops my existence relating to something that was assembling itself slowly, like amino acids floating in solution or something, slowly connecting with one another - at times this process seems to reach some sort of critical mass at which point some brief profound overall MEANING envelops my life briefly

I'm guessing it's my brain going through the healing steps (maybe it's the dead cell layers getting whisked away and getting a new neural connection at that point, but I don't recall this sort of experience before this seizure period - but then, maybe I just don't remember it

I've had a lot of garbled wording in my head while this is going on - sort of like supercalifragilisticexpialadocious type of wording, but like a non-stop stream of garble - I've had a lot of scientific thinking ... I guess my brain is trying to rationalize it all

 

[arnie]

There you go again, thinking after a seizure! No good will come of that. Just relax, and if a flash of insight comes to you let it rest for a while and don't overthink it. If it's actually a good insight enough of it will be there later for you to incorporate it. Don't try right now, and definitely don't try to rationalize it, cuz it ain't rational. Eat a piece of chocolate.

 

[petero]

thanks arnie - I think you're probably right