meltdown

[Sandie]

Had a bit of a meltdown tonight. I was shopping and zoned out. Pushed the trolley straight into the fixtures in front of me and frightened the daylights out of the shop assistant. I laughed it off until I got to the car and then the floodgates opened. Everything smells like I work in a chemical factory and I feel like I've been on an alcoholic binge. My neurologist not only doesn't want me to drive but he doesn't think I am safe on public transport either until I am stabilized. Fortunately I have been approved for taxi subsidies but reality is sinking in and I am just feeling miserable tonight. Sorry guys.

 

[Sunsia]

Hi sandie my name is stacey and im 24 years old . I have grand mal siezures and have since I was 18 which hit me hard . I was just starting adulthood and this thing as I use to call it came into my brain and now Im terrified to do much . I take keppra twice a day and for the last week I have had the same issue zoning out , random shakings , and very bad anxiety . I am probably luck that mine are controlled and I to have had very bad meltdowns were everything hits . You feel your independence is gone completely your not your own person anymore . Maybe therapy would help , or close friends to just release all the emotions locked inside . If you need a friend or someone to vent too I am here for you .

 

[BrandiBrat]

Sandie, My buddy.... I'm sending a warm and heartfelt hug to you :hugs: I'm sorry you're having a tough time right now. Is there anything that's recently changed such as your stress level, diet, or meds? Sleep patterns or the weather? If there's anything at all I can do or even if you want to chat, let me know ok? Message me ANYTIME!

 

[pita300]

Sandie,

I am sorry for your melt down. There is nothing worse than it happening in public. It's defiantly the worse part of this disorder. Here some big hugs to help you through this:hugs:

 

[Wobblez]

Aaaah Sandie, isn't it poo when this happens?? =( Sending you big hugs with a dose of "I can relate" =)

 

[Sandie]

Thanks everyone. I'm ok this morning. Didn't sleep real well but that is all part and parcel. Brandi, my stress levels are huge at the moment and I know this is contributing. My mother is really ill as I have mentioned here before. I am watching her go down hill.
She is depressed because she knows what is happening to her and she knows she is terminally ill. It is really hard to keep her spirits up and although I do my best, my best just isn't enough. The nursing staff are wonderful to her but she relies on me for her emotional support and I am becoming mentally drained. My husband is by my side through this but it is still tough. I know there are many people that go through this but this is my turn and it sucks. Take care everyone, I'll be ok. Nice to know I can come here x

 

[BrandiBrat]

I'm so sorry to hear that, Sandie It's got to be a helpless battle for you and your husband. I'm sure you already know this (especially after last night), but when your cup is empty you aren't able to replenish your own resources. Is there something that you can do to de-stress? For instance, when I can't take any more of what life throws at me I have my horses to spend time with to replenish my soul. I know it's a small comparison to what you are dealing with, but is there something you can do to call a "time-out" so you can reduce some of the stress taking care of mom brings to you? As always, you're in my prayers

 

[Sandie]

Thanks Brandi. Actually, my husband and I sing and play guitar.That is our de-stress. We actually perform at the nursing home on a regular basis and give the residents a little sunshine (or try to). Makes Mum feel special too. I'll be ok. I'm not new to the 'school of hard knocks'. I am in a better place this morning. The seizure at the shopping centre was just the last straw after a pretty stressful week.(It wasn't even in the cutlery aisle Ha) I usually laugh these silly things off but it just got the better of me this time. Take care, my friend.

 

[pita300]

Hi Sandie,

you and I beat stress the same way Most people go work out. Brandi has her horses you and I enjoy music. If I'm just having a day that I can't shake I reach for my guitar. If I had a piano Id play it. If My day is extremely bad I will call my church to see if I can come play the piano. There is no better stress relief. I am sorry to hear of your mom. It has to be a hard place to be in. I will be happy to keep you in my prayers

 

[Sandie]

Thanks Pita. Means a lot to me.

 

[MuayThaiFighter]

I'm sorry Sandie, nothing sucks more then having a bad time with seizures. The day is kind of shot after and things are hazy. Hope you get stabilized soon and im in the same boat. I'd invest in a punching bag, great help after a crappy day. Plus no assault charges, so its a win win!

 

[Sandie]

Thanks my friend,I know things haven't been easy for you either, lately. I'm on a bit of a roller coaster ride at the moment but hopefully it will settle down a bit soon. Just get upset with the reality sometimes. I've only had seizures in public twice and it really drives it home how much of a pain in the rear end it must be for you guys who are a hell of a lot worse off than I am. Hope you are feeling a lot more settled. Take care MuayThaiFighter. You are a good friend.

 

[MuayThaiFighter]

Well thank you for all your kind words Sandie. I think its perfectly normal to get piss at this reality, because we all want to feel 100 percent. If someone said they wanted to just feel at 60 percent all the time i'd be a little worried haha.

Things are going to work out for me, just a matter of time. I'd do something to make yourself happy asap. Tell everyone to chill, watch a movie and maybe binge on ice cream. Usually works my friend. =)

 

[CQ:)]

Sandie,
Sorry to hear about your mum & the meltdown you had.

Sending some hugs :hugs: