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Well this morning started out anything but normal. Lauralee woke up cranky as could be and very whinny. I'm not sure what was wrong I mean she ate well at dinner last night and slept right through the night. I manged after fighting with her for 20mins about what she wanted to eat to get her to eat breakfast and take her meds which was another fight in itself. She's gotten now to where she doesn't want to take them. She was still cranky lots of screaming for no reason and saying go away went in the bedroom jumped on her sisters bed and BAM!!!! Alexis (her sister) started yelling, "MOM she's having a seizure MOM hurry up." Sure enough I went in the bedroom and there was my precious baby thrashing and convulsing. Just staring off in to space with her arms and legs just a thrashing. So I did all the basics made sure she wasn't going to hurt herself put her on her side and proceeded to talk to her. I'm not even sure if she can hear me. I'm not exactly how aware she is of whats going on. But, I keep talking maybe it's a way to keep me calm I don't know. I mean lauralee has had seizures since she was six months old and I can't even count how many she's had and it never gets any easier. I mean I'm at the point now that I don't freak out and go completely balistic and call an ambulance every time I wait and time them just like the doctor says to and as long as she comes out of them before the time limit and is ok I don't take her to the hospital. But, every time is still so scary. I think maybe it's the fear that this might be the one she doesn't come out of. I know that people live with epilepsy and have pretty normal lives in fact I dated I guy in highschool that had it, but the possibility is still there and it scares me. Lauralee and her sister are my life and I don't know what I'd do if I lost either one of them. Does it ever get easier? I mean will I always feel this way?