Hi I'm new to this site and just want to tell about my situation.. I was diagnosed with epilepsy in 2012 aged 20 but have had epilepsy since I can remember without knowing it was epilepsy. I have temporal lobe epilepsy and have complex partial seizures but they have recently progressed to secondary generalised seizures. I used to have complex partial seizures twice a month having multiple seizures throughout day but they changed to having them more often throughout the months. The seizures usually start with and aura ( déjà vu and just knowing I'm about to have one and then just blanking out remaining conscious but in my own world and having really weird feelings I can't even explain. I find it so hard trying to explain to people the way they feel, they're always different but I always feel fear. When I was young I used to say that I was having something funny in my stomach and run close to mum and stand on a mat, rubbing my tummy and looking around the room. Mum never picked up on it as epilepsy she and my family just thought I was nervous. I wish I was diagnosed when I was young but oh well.. I then began having laughing/crying fits. When they happen I just feel either really energetic and start babbling or just really sad and start crying and laughing. Both the complex partial seizures and these laughing fits I can remember the whole seizure but just can't control it. With the blank out seizures I can normally remain my usual activity but just not be with it. Anyway I was put on epilem 500mg twice a day and keppra 1500mg twice a day which controlled seizures for about a month but unfortunately the seizures returned but after a while the laughing/crying seizures stopped and the blank out seizures remained. I stayed on this medication from 2012 until this year recently I was being weaned off the medication to start a family when I had 2 generalised seizures can't remember either of them but my Neuro started me on lamictal which so far is working pretty well. The first 3 months I was seizure free but I then had a couple of partial seizures so he upped my dose, now on 125mg twice a day. I've just began having auras while going to sleep they constantly wake me up as I'm drifting to sleep (very annoying) and also had 2 nights of weird twitching and jerking without having a seizure both times I was really tired. Anyone experienced this? Do you think it could be the meds or something new I might be experiencing? When it happens I feel weird I feel like I'm someone else and start explaining to my partner what I'm about to do next. Both times I tried breathing properly and it eventually stopped. I hate it though as it makes me scared to go bed now, I really don't want to start having seizures again because I'm really liking the lamictal. Also I'm planning to start a family in December and I'm really scared about being on meds while pregnant. Has anyone been on lamictal while pregnant? And did you breasts feed successfully? I really am hoping to breast feed. Sorry about my massive thread lol it just feels really good talking to people who also have epilepsy. It's hard for people without epilepsy to truly understand and know how it feels. Thanks heaps


