I'd say a lot of the stress you're experiencing right now is due to the unknown. That is one scary feeling when all you can think is 'What is it? Will it get worse? Am I causing them? What if it happens in public? When will I get to drive again?'... and on and on.
Give yourself as big of a break as you can, because if it truly is complex partials and you have Epilepsy IT IS NOTHING YOU DID. It will either be due to an abnormality or you will be one of the 70 per cent of Epilepsy sufferers with no known cause. There are of course things a person does that can trigger them (alcohol/drugs, not sleeping, not eating properly, overworking...), but these are not the causes of Epilepsy, only triggers that can bring a seizure on. Sounds though like you look after yourself, which is great.
As for those close to you and you beating yourself up when you come out of one, if you can just kick that to the curb. This is not your fault, it's a bitch to believe it but majority of the time Epilepsy just happens. It's not like you smoke and develop lung cancer, or live a life of poor diet and develop diabetes. Epilepsy is a disease all its own, and a bit of a silver lining of it being incurable (HUGS in case that was news) is that you can look yourself in the mirror every day knowing you did not cause it, it was out of your hands, NOTHING you could have done.
So for now until you know more through tests and neuros and an official diagnosis (if that is the case), just know you're doing all you can with what's been placed in front of you. Inform close friends and family how it feels and what they'll see when it happens around them, and for everyone to just accept this is what you're going through and be as strong for you as they can. Talk about it as much as you want; I know 'manning up' feels like the thing to do, but letting your guard down and allowing yourself to accept how you feel and that this may be a new life will help lower stress, which may help lower the amount of seizures.
I wish you all the best and pls keep us posted.