i was diagnosed 3 years ago after having a seizure while sitting at my computer. i have been on dilantin and it didnt slow the seizures so i stopped taking it. i dont seem to have any more seizures off the meds as i did on meds. i do have some pretty scary nightmares almost every night and they seem to last all night long. its always a family member in danger or i am lost and cant seem to leave where i am no matter how much i try. i will be in a vaguely familiar place but it is different enough that i cant find the way out. last night was really bad.if i think about them or talk about them they get stuck in my head like a memory of a real event.epilepsy isnt the only health problem i have. i also have heart disease and marfans syndrome with all its related problems.i dont know why i started having this problem so late in life but of all my health issues and all the pain the nightmares are the worst. i even attempted suicide a couple years ago to escape the nightmares and the pain of my disease. lucky for me my family found me and got me some treatment so i only wound up with some liver damage from the overdose. i know this sounds extreme and it is but if you have those nightmares enough even that begins to seem like a valid choice. i normally have grand mal seizures and dont recall what happened but once a few months ago i had one where i stayed awake but couldnt do anything for a few minutes. i felt the seizure coming on and saw an aura then i fell to the floor and started jerking with my right arm extended toward the ceiling.i couldnt speak at first but i could hear my 2 year old grand daughter screaming poppy poppy and crying because she knew i was hurt somehow.as soon as i could speak i told her i was okay but i hope i never have to hear her scream my name and cry again as long as i live. is there an way to lessen these nightmares? i have heard that alcohol makes them worse.i hardly ever drink.but the other night i had a few with my son as we worked on his truck.a few turned into a few to many but i didnt have a nightmare or didnt remember it.i hate alcohol but was thinking if it had that effect that maybe there was a med that could help