Psychosis

Have you experienced

  • peri-ictal psychosis?

    Votes: 1 3.7%
  • ictal psychosis?

    Votes: 10 37.0%
  • post-ictal psychosis?

    Votes: 18 66.7%

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Ruth

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I finally told my doctor yesterday about my depression. I asked her to refer me to a therapist. She wants to put me on a small amount of medicine. She did not tell me which medicine. She is going to ask my neuro first. If she gives me any medicine I will ask the pharmacist first. They know more about medicines than the doctors.

My husband thinks I am Bi-Polar. I do not think so.

It is my son who is on Risperdal. He has Schizophrenia. My son is doing great on the medicine.
 

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Billy, Derealization falls into the categoray of Dissociative Disorders. I have a rather rare form of Dissociation with includes Depersonalization and have been in therapy for sometime, seeing a specialist who treats patients excusively for Dissociation. Unfortunaltely there is no medication which can treat Dissociation. It usually stems from traumatic events in childhood so this disorder is physiological.

I'm providing a link with explores Derealization for you. You may PM me if you have any questions about Depersonalization or just want to talk. It's a pretty intense thing to go through.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derealization
 
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Lady Edge

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My six year old son who has E has told me before that "sometimes I hear bad words in my head over and over..My brain wants me to say them out loud but my heart knows I shouldn't". He was crying when he told me this. You could tell he was going through an inner struggle. so sad. I've told the neuro but she LITERALLY just looked at me like I was stupid and went on rushing us out of her office.
 

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I would suggest taking him to a child psychiatrist or psychotherapist. Or better yet, if you can find a neuro-psychiatrist. The little guy needs some peace... I had terrible ordeals with psychosis when I was just about his age.
 
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Lady Edge. I'm sorry about your son. Have you considered tourette's? You would think that a doctor would recognize something like that. Maybe because he doesn't actually verbalize, it's not a consideration.
 

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After the worst of my seizure headaches I've experienced some very strange thoughts during post-ictal psychotic periods. I also sometimes experience similar thoughts during a seizure. Does anyone here have experience with ictal or post-ictal psychosis? If so, what kind of disturbed thinking have you experienced and how do you cope?
I'm pretty sure I've had psychosis from taking levitiricetam and it was post/peri/ictal= I'm not really sure which in total but I'm definite it was post- (after waking up in mind-blowing pain) and it was at a hospital which I'm sure exacerbated the situation, and which makes the persistent, incremental and ongoing recollection that much worse, that it was going on in public.

I've been trying to work it out since, and that was two years ago, and it seems like "working it out" just makes it worse. I still wind up in situations and see people from the incident (real people) that are immediately tagged "psychosis" in my head along with the incident, but have almost nil or no sensible context. And these people I think were really there. Often it'll be just things like a coat, or sunglasses, but often it's a face, and then *bam* and I think "that person was THERE" and it scares me to death. And these aren't like deja vu experiences, they're different.
 

petero

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As for how I coped with it, I just try to keep my contact with people to a minimum. I feel often feel like trying to communicate or interact is too much of an effort.
I know what this is like. Sometimes it feels like everyone I see knows I have epilepsy and has seen me have my worst seizures and is judging me somehow for reasons I don't understand.
 

petero

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ive had post ictal psychosis in the past, your not alone. Ive thought my parents were imposters, that i had infact died, seeing people look like reptiles & pigs, unreasonable fear, pseudo religious delusions of grandeur, etc so on, I also attempted suicide one time. It's scary stuff. I use gabapentin as an add on and it seems to make the fear a little easier to take, I also use 6-7 grams of fish oil daily. Short term valium can also alleviate symptoms if severe. (it wakes me up from a psychosis near instantly) RobinN has put in links about gluten, but I believe its the seizure rebound that causes psychosis, in a similar way to post ictal depression, rather than related to gluten in a TLE case. Psychosis & bipolar are of course well associated with TLE. I think self awareness can go a long way, human company can help with the fear and limit psychotic behavior (self harm etc), and bearing in mind that it will pass in a day or two. Its still a horrible thing to get through, and as much as it can be minimized, there's no easy solution, but I'm your brother going through the same stuff on the otherside of the world, and although I've feared going "crazy long term" for years it has always passed in the end. This is a thought to also remember! Fortunate for us a TLE psychosis will pass.
Im actually otherwise a quite sane person, I just happen to have a part time vocation as a psychonaut. (To sound like a total douche..I believe this is the source of both my weakness and wisdom.)
Although i wouldn't wish my experiences on anyone, and don't want to relive them, we are lucky to experience the breadth of the human mind, its frailties torments and beauty, and to come back sane people able to interpret our subjective experience rationally. It always passes!
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excellent info jimijiminez - I've still been trying to "realize" what is bouncing around in my head piecemeal which was I'm pretty sure a psychotic episode
it's hard stuff to come to terms with, but there's recollection stuff that still creeps into my head and leaves me like "wtf?" when I'll see a person, when a certain thing happens or something or other

text in red: funny
 

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I haven't been formally diagnosed with postictal psychosis but feel like I'm going crazy mentally since I started having seizures. It's like my brain never stops thinking and over thinking things. I've been so paranoid that it's just me that feels this way that I joined this forum just to learn, I'm not the only person out there that feels this way.
 

petero

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After the worst of my seizure headaches I've experienced some very strange thoughts during post-ictal psychotic periods... ...have experience with ictal or post-ictal psychosis? If so, what kind of disturbed thinking have you experienced and how do you cope?
boy oh boy. Do I ever.
After a seizure almost three years ago, I was woken up, I wish I would have stayed in bed. My mom came to my house and basically insists I go to the ER. Next thing I know the ambulance is in my living room, the guys asking if I want the gurney, she keeps insisting, I concede.
I get strapped in, and about three minutes later it's all <nothing> up to a point I recall being let out to have a cigarette.
Since then I've been experiencing wisps of recollection to a timeframe [between] those moments in time - or at least what I believe is between them. And this is where my schizo-thinking begins, trying to drape these shreds of "reality" over a framework between that timeframe.
I believe I was "activated" while ictal-period wavering, hence going psychotic.
So since then I've been grasping for shreds of life that had been blown completely apart. Things can be done, I can move from point A to point B, but it is all meaningless.
There is the void that life is filling. Usually life is a layer upon later in real time. Now, since then, the layers just go DOWN, like throwing shovelfuls into a massive sinkhole. There isn't the clumping of existence, it all just slips off of being and into a giant black hole sinkhole of three years ago?
How do I cope?
I avoid doctors as much as possible now. I smoke pot at night to help me sort thinking out. I don't own a gun. I don't eat fast food much. I don't look at people anymore.
I guess these things are helping me.
 

petero

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After one of my larger seizures I've found that I'm likely to question anything I say or do. During conversations I'm OK until after I walk away & think about it then I start to think everything I said was stupid or inappropriate. Same if I post anything here, I wonder if I'd posted something wrong & emotionally beat myself up for it.

This only happens with the more intense seizures. I never thought of it as psychosis but I guess it is if defining it as "a loss of contact with reality".

Right on. I've come to a teetering point of massive retrospection that has been having massive effects on my mental health stability. It's like - the seizures themselves are bad, yes - even worse seems the entire world if I'm not given ample healing time after my seizures - especially the big ones.

It's like a bird on a branch. Seizure shakes the branch. The bird will re-alight when it's comfortable. If someone or some incident tries to interact with the bird then it just shoos the bird farther from the branch. The branch is the body, the bird is the mind and soul. I don't want anyone to interact with my bird unless it alights onto the branch again, otherwise it is gibberish, and it makes the bird more distracted, making a real alighting even less likely.
Non-epileptic people have no idea what the mind is really like.
 

petero

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... ... Fortunate for us a TLE psychosis will pass.

Im actually otherwise a quite sane person, I just happen to have a part time vocation as a psychonaut. (To sound like a total douche..I believe this is the source of both my weakness and wisdom.)

Although i wouldn't wish my experiences on anyone, and don't want to relive them, we are lucky to experience the breadth of the human mind, its frailties torments and beauty, and to come back sane people able to interpret our subjective experience rationally. It always passes!

Right on. Especially the psychonaut part. I think the "paranoia" so broadly used as a term isn't that at all, but realization that "I am of a different universe now" after having had deep seizures, and a deep psychotic. I tend to look on people with pathos for being such clueless idiots, in a way, for NOT having had seizures - for NOT having had that breadth of mind experience (and THESE are the people classifying ME as having a "disorder"? These people are nothing but protein bags of pure mental ignorance that have no idea how to interact with their f*ing quantum-mind lord!)
 
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