About 10 years ago I had a really terrible and traumatic temporal lobe seizure while smoking pot with my roommate in college. It was the first one I had had since I was a small child, and I had completely forgotten that they had ever happened in the first place. Ever since then everything in my life has changed and I feel like I am not myself. I am desperate to get out of this state and back to my life. Lately I have read about how people whose seizures are controlled are more likely to have interictal dysphoric disorder (which I believe I have), anxiety and depression. I am currently trying out gabapentin, an anti-seizure medication, but I have gone long periods without medication, so that is not the only reason they are controlled.
So here is my question.....should I try to somehow induce a seizure? I know that sounds crazy but like I said, I am literally desperate. I also just read on the forum that people were feeling some sort of relief or release after a seizure, like a sneeze. Believe me, it was a horrible experience and the last thing I want to go through again, but it would be worth it if I felt better after. Anyone???
So here is my question.....should I try to somehow induce a seizure? I know that sounds crazy but like I said, I am literally desperate. I also just read on the forum that people were feeling some sort of relief or release after a seizure, like a sneeze. Believe me, it was a horrible experience and the last thing I want to go through again, but it would be worth it if I felt better after. Anyone???