staying up til midnight...

[Maidenminx]

Is so much easier when you know you can go to bed whenever you want. Tonight, it's killing me. I only have 50 mins to go, but the idea of having to wake up by 4 has me worried. I hope I don't oversleep.

Luckily, I have something to be excited about. Tomorrow, before my eeg, I'm buying a new laptop and can start my uni preparation course. Considering I haven't studied in 13 years doing something free and easy is a nice way to ease in.

Random tired ramblings... Not good...

 

[MaeDae]

Good luck with eeg, and congrats on laptop and course. : )

 

[Maidenminx]

So it's nearly 5.30 am and I've been awake for over an hour and a half and boy is it hard to stay awake. I can't wait till sunrise and I'm also hoping that my son gets up earlier than usual so I have some company. Tempted to wake hubby, but he needshis sleep. So bored!

 

[CQ:)]

Good luck with the EEG

 

[Nakamova]

Hang in there! And let us know how it goes.

 

[jayde-101]

good luck with the eeg keep us informed x

 

[Maidenminx]

Thanks guys.

Now that the day has officially begun I'm feeling a little more perky.
Less than 5 hours till my appt, which means less than that till I get my laptop. Woohoo!

 

[Maidenminx]

Well my EEG is done and dusted. During the hyperventilation stage I jerked all over the place. I don't remember dozing off during the quiet phase but this time I found the strobe light almost unbearable and jerked on and off during that stage too. So with a bit of luck, I may get some sort of answer to what exactly is going on in my head.

Now it's over 3 hours after my EEG and I am exhausted but I refuse to go to sleep until my son is at least in bed. If I crash earlier I'll throw my sleep pattern out and I don't need that right now.

I should probably go and do some school work on my new laptop since that's what I bought it for. I don't know if I have the brain space for study but any start is better than no start.

 

[julie wishes]

I'm so hopeful you get some answers.

 

[Nakamova]

I hope you can get back on track soon sleepwise. When do you hear from your doc about the EEG results?

 

[Maidenminx]

I have an appointment in 2 days with my neuro so then I guess. I'm so relieved I have an appointment so soon. It's been a very strange week. I thought I was going to collapse just a little while ago and I really need to get my valium script filled. I'm going to have to wait until this afternoon for that though because I wouldn't make it to the shop and no one is available to drive me until then. I feel like such a burden on everyone at the moment. I'm causing my son anxiety, which is the last thing he needs more of. I'm wearing out the rest of my family. They say they don't mind and I believe them... I'm just tired of it all. I've been crying on and off for the last hour or so for the most ridiculous reasons. I'm in my first week of pre-tertiary study and I have done nothing so far. Is it too soon to let my tutors know how things are for me at the moment? I refuse to screw this up. Though I keep having a dream I have had on and off for years of me going back to school and not understanding anything in any classes so I end up skipping all my classes and turn myself into an outcast... Maybe that's why I'm studying online this time.

WOW! What a ramble. I think I needed to get that out of my system.

On the plus side, I am really enjoying my new laptop. It's so nice to not have to use my phone all the time.