the closeness of death ... your thoughts?

[Ruth]

I just found out today that my brother-in-law has Stage 4 Cancer and it has metastasied to his bones. Is he and his wife given up? No, They are thinking positive. So am I.

Most people who give up, wonder if they are going to hellfire. There is no such thing. The word hell, in Greek, means the grave.

Having strong beliefs in LIFE is what everyone should have. I know I do.

 

[droolmonster]

drarvindr--

Sudden nihilism? I came down with this awful sore throat right after being hugely disappointed by the Lost finale. My general philosophy is usually more Buddhistic. But philosophically speaking Buddhism can float into either nihilism or existentialism. I call Buddha the first existentialist. Thank you for the cool quotes. I always wanted to be a neurobiologist doing research and cure my disease, but I'm not smart enough. It's annoying too, because there are a lot of scientists in my family, and I had to get crazy artist instead of mad scientist.

Something cool from nihilism-- If a tree's branches reached to heaven, its roots would reach to hell.

 

[stardust92]

I guess I have a different perspective than those who replied before me. I am very aware of each and every moment I have here on this earth. I've had temporal lobe epilepsy for 30 years now and they originate from the left temporal lobe, the hardest type to control. I suffered from both CP and TC seizures, morning, noon and night. My first TC seizure happened while I was stepping out of the shower, and when I fell, I fell onto the hot water and lay there, seizing, long enough to suffer 2nd and 3rd degree burns on my back, arm and leg. Had I been home alone, I may not have made it out alive. I was in the hospital for 2 months and had skin grafts and more surgeries.

Thank goodness I'm not alone! I was beginning to think I was really screwed up. I found out the hard way that TLE is hard to control with meds. A few years ago I was having 10-15 CP seizures a week, then I had a temporal lobectomy. I've been complex partial seizure free for over two years, but I've had a couple tonic clonic seizures since then. Now I just have frequent auras without a seizure, but I still feel like I might die at any moment... It's scary.

 

[50yearman]

Repliying to all as this is my first time. having a seizure condition, '' not a disorder for over 49 years'' I do not worry about dying from a seizure. I may die any second if the Lord believes I am good enough for him as I know the devil would not want me because I am too bad. In the meantime I struggle with watching what I eat and swallow as far as foods contaminated with MSG, Carrageenan, Nitrates, Soy additives and other toxic garbage the FDA allows the food & beverage industry to use. A warning to every one would be to watch for patterns of seizures and or auras when eating foods or drinks with these type of chemicals and additives. Most doctors will never believe what I say to be true as my neurologist said about my last grand mal episode was ''Intresting". That was it as he did not and never has denied what I say about foods to be false. I even typed out and printed the last episode of what happened and gave it to him to add to my medical file. I told him that was a FACT SHEET that I gace him as I also gave him 3 Kashi Granola Bars that created a Grand Mal seizure after eatingthem for 10 days. After I explained it all and gave him the fact sheet and bars he asked if they were his bars. i told him I will not eat them as I advised him not to eat them as it was his brain they may affect not mine after knowing what they will do to me. I mainly gave the bars to him to use in a future research study if they would ever be one on food chemicals and additives causing Grand mals and other siezures. My doctor who I had at NIH still tells me no to this but I know better. Unfortunately the FDA AMA and most to all neurologist will arragontly deny this fact about what we eat and drink causing any neurological condition including seizures. maybe some time before Jesus comes back we may have an answer to all our concerns and problems. I really doubt that though if the doctors and research scientists will never listen to what we are living with and what we know. can't wait to see replies about this. I can see them now. No I am not crazy or insane.

 

[Ruth]

Do not be afraid. I am not!! I look forward to living one day at a time. LIFE is what we should be talking about. LIFE is precious.

 

[JimNavy]

When it's my time to go, I'll go regardless if it is a seizure that takes me. I mean it's like I've said to my family, I could walk across the street and get hit by a car. I think about it but I don't dwell on it. What would I do, lock myself away and wait for it?

 

[Ruth]

When it's my time to go, I'll go regardless if it is a seizure that takes me. I mean it's like I've said to my family, I could walk across the street and get hit by a car. I think about it but I don't dwell on it. What would I do, lock myself away and wait for it?

:agree::agree:

 

[douglas]

This isn't going to be morbid, exactly, just some thoughts.

I've been thinking a lot about how as an epileptic, I am aware all of the time of how I could die at any moment. It could be SUDEP, or it could just be a seizure at the wrong place at the wrong time. I don't think that other people really understand this. I've been having seizures since I was thirteen, or twelve, that was a long time ago, the end of seventh grade, anyway, since then I have been aware of my own death. Also, my older brother died when I started high school. It was a new school, and I didn't know anybody. He was twenty. My remaining sister is fifteen years older than me. Now she is thirty-six, and my parents are just beginning their sixties. I am just beginning my twenties.

I feel old, and am thinking about how short life is. Especially compared to the entire span of existence. I don't mean human existence. Our existence, compared to the age of the universe, is so miniscule it's ridiculous. The entire age of the human race, compared to the age of the universe, is so miniscule it's ridiculous. Yet I feel old, because I am a human, and can only see what's in front of me, and I have an urgent need to leave something of myself behind, but what, is the question. I think all people feel that, that's why we reproduce even though babies are a pain. Just kidding, I love babies.

Has having this disease changed any of your perception of life and death? Do you prefer not to think about it?

Peace.

interesting post. thinking about death once in a while is normal -- we are all human and we must die one day from something. just don't dwell on it so much that you forget to try to live your life happily.

i try to be grateful for what i have. the luck i have has thus far, and the family i have. when i hear stories of what my parents and grand parents and great grandparents lived through - i think i am very lucky to live the way i do and in the times i live in.

yes, i will admit, SUDEP has crossed my mind. but i don't dwell on it. its not something i can really do much about. you have to live your life with the cards you have been dealt. if you happen to have epi; well, thats what you have been dealt with. it would have been nice to not have it; but, it could have been something much worse. and also, you still don't know what other cards you have coming you way. perhaps cancer? perhaps something else? no point dwelling on it too much.