what is happening to me

[Emee]

I wanted to post this a few min ago when I was having these weird symptoms but I couldn't quite remember how to do it. My brain seems to be clearing & I want to get this written down before I completely forget the experience.

It seems at the time that it is happening my thoughts become jumbled & I can't get a grasp on reality. I feel as if I'm going back into another time, I feel like I'm between 2 memories. The place my brain wants to go to seems so familiar & at times I would just like to let go & let my mind take me back there, but I keep struggling to get my thoughts back to reality. At the time this is happening I get afraid I might completely lose my mind & forget who I am. So far when these episodes happen I know who I am & can carry on a conversation even on the phone & no one suspects anything. I feel I'm in a state of confusion & can't remember details such forum names or exactly how to do some things. My DH doesn't notice anything is wrong & usually ignores me when I try to tell him. I guess it sounds crazy to him.

When my mind starts clearing I usually have a headache like the beginning of a migraine. Sorry this is so long. Do any of you experience this with partial seizures? thanks, it's so good to have someone to talk to.

 

[Nakamova]

I've experienced something similar where it felt like I was conscious and focused, yet at the same time my mind was dipping in and out of a dream. Maybe a bit like what happens when you are very sleepy and doze off for a microsecond but are awake almost right away. It can happen be a simple partial seizure, though in my case, it's been more of a "breakthrough seizure", a warning that my meds may be too low.

 

[petero]

I have had periods recently where it feels like gaps of memory from long ago get filled in with events and people around me so that current events become history.
an actual memory becomes augmented, tweaked, by something current.
it's like a forward and reverse procession of time coinciding.
repeating a common occurrence or seeing a strange but familiar face, or being somewhere I've been, but not for a while.
these sorts of fringe memories can have some strange type of instability.
it's like I'm progressing through hmmm like one of those old slat pictures that will hide/reveal one picture behind the other- like Venetian blinds...
one part from one picture in proximity to a different part of the other picture doesn't make sense, but as they move it will seem to make sense of something that wasn't just previously there.
it's weird
familiar unfamiliar

 

[Hand of Blood]

this is exactally what i get!! and ive been ignored too neros seem to only worry about my tonic clonic sezures they dont care about side effects or anything else

 

[Emee]

Thanks for your replies. It is certainly weird because everytime this happens it's the same scene. I feel like I'm starting an old movie I've seen several times. I can't help being a little frightened everytime one of these episodes happens. It feels so real I think I might not return to reality & spend the rest of my life a babbling old fool living in a make believe world.

 

[Malla]

Hello Emee... I dont know how to describe my experiences regarding this but I'll try... yesterday I had a cluster of seizures with very little jerks, however it was still in my head - so to speak. I started feeling hightened, the senses sort of removed from the physical body. A pleasureable feeling. It just went on and on since the seizures didn't want to end. Inbetween when I was able to close my eyes - I closed them, only to be "opened into another reality". It was extremely I saw people, faces, stuff... you name it. Its probably some sort of hallucination.... or maybe not ty, hugs Malla

 

[Emee]

Thanks Malla, It is hard to describe something we don't understand. My DH just tells me not to worry about it. Easy for him to say.