Hi Ben, do you feel safer with your son on Depakote? what is ocd?
Does your doctor want to ween your son off of Depakote? School will make your son tired, especially, with medicines.
I only feel safer with him on the Depakote b/c I know it works (no jinx). When he was uncontrolled in July 2007 it made going out and doing things pretty rough. I was always scared he would have one. Always looking around and studying the place we were in, planning out what i would do if he had one. In August and Sept of that year the drs. seem to find the right dose of tegrotal and things were good. Then they went south having one at 10 am and 6 pm when ever he was at pre-pre-k.
Switched to Trileptal which worked except when he had a fever, and i mean any fever, 99 to 102. So in December of 2007 the drs. made the switch to Depakote. Once again starting on the lowest dose.
But something happened, they stopped. We did not have to move up the dose until a year and a half later when they had us take a blood test and saw he was under the threshold for the meds to be working. So we went up one pill.
So long story short, when they switched to depakote and the sz stopped (no jinx) I was not scared to go out. I was not obsessing over where we were and how I would handle one out at where ever we were. We actually took a vacation to the shore for a week.
Now that they want him off the meds and I am not sure if I will be scared again, I have relyed on the med working so much. SO that is why I do feel "safer" while he is on the med.
Going slow or fast while weening does not make a difference. If he is not "cured" he will have one again. He is on such a low dose that when he comes off one pill he will be under the threshold of the med working. Who knows how long he went with the med not being effective in his system. (This is a good sign, to me at least)
What I mean about OCD (Obsessive–compulsive disorder) about thinking and over thinking. I do not obsess about a lot of things just about keeping him and my wife safe at all costs. So I over think making sure everything is kosher. It also goes along with my superstitions (hence the no jinxes)
Its just the way my mind works, and I am fine with it and what ever happens or can happen to me as long as my son and wife are safe...
Thanks again for your thoughtsand comment, you are all really helping me through this.