Matthew74
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I got a good part time job at the library. Nobody knows I have epilepsy. I am doing very well. Mostly everything is great, except for what isn't. I won't go into the details, but basically there is a combination of bad management and personal issues making a wreck of everything. This is 100% not my fault. I would admit it if it were. I am doing a good job. I've been dealing with it the best I can. I am being accommodating and patient, but it's reached a point where it's not going to go away, and will only get worse. Policies are in place to make it worse. Two people have quit in the two months I've been there.
The most basic problem is that my supervisor is NEVER in my building. In two months I think that they have been present maybe 3 days, and that was right at the beginning. They don't know me at all, and do not see my work. However, they consistently believe the worst they hear about me, and then hassle me about it. People talk behind my back. I thought that maybe sooner or later my supervisor would get to know me and everything would be ok. I don't know if that will happen, but I know I'm not going to make it. I don't have the mental resources to deal with the situation. I've missed two days in two weeks because of stress. I had two entirely sleepless nights. I can't calm down today.
I would simply quit because I can't deal with the unnecessary stress, but it's not so easy. Apart from this issue it would be a really good job. One of the people that quit was full-time, and I would be the most logical candidate to fill that role, but I won't get promoted if my supervisor thinks I am a "problem". I called human resources and talked to some of the disability people. I didn't give them details yet. It only came to a crisis point yesterday. I don't know how to proceed. I'm really angry because I don't want to make this an ADA issue, and I do not want it known that I have epilepsy and a brain tumor, but I may have no choice. That's wrong, you should not be forced to self identify. I don't want to get in to a "fight" with anyone AT ALL, but they are really pushing it. I don't want to give up, but I don't think I have the mental energy to deal with it. I certainly do not want to end up in the emergency room with seizures.
The most basic problem is that my supervisor is NEVER in my building. In two months I think that they have been present maybe 3 days, and that was right at the beginning. They don't know me at all, and do not see my work. However, they consistently believe the worst they hear about me, and then hassle me about it. People talk behind my back. I thought that maybe sooner or later my supervisor would get to know me and everything would be ok. I don't know if that will happen, but I know I'm not going to make it. I don't have the mental resources to deal with the situation. I've missed two days in two weeks because of stress. I had two entirely sleepless nights. I can't calm down today.
I would simply quit because I can't deal with the unnecessary stress, but it's not so easy. Apart from this issue it would be a really good job. One of the people that quit was full-time, and I would be the most logical candidate to fill that role, but I won't get promoted if my supervisor thinks I am a "problem". I called human resources and talked to some of the disability people. I didn't give them details yet. It only came to a crisis point yesterday. I don't know how to proceed. I'm really angry because I don't want to make this an ADA issue, and I do not want it known that I have epilepsy and a brain tumor, but I may have no choice. That's wrong, you should not be forced to self identify. I don't want to get in to a "fight" with anyone AT ALL, but they are really pushing it. I don't want to give up, but I don't think I have the mental energy to deal with it. I certainly do not want to end up in the emergency room with seizures.