In October after over 3 years when I was finally diagnoses, I felt better to at least know what was wrong, and that I was not losing my mind. After going from doctor to doctor, and being told I was depressed, or having hormone issues, one begins to question their sanity! I knew I was not depressed, as I have been there before. I also knew I was not having pre menapause, because at 27, I had a partial hysterectomy, and sometimes when they get in that area, your ovaries will shut down temporarily, but begin to work again in a few weeks. The feeling was totally different from the terrible night sweats I was having. The funny thing about that was that my estrogen levels were normal, but I was prescribed estrogen to take anyway. I came to a point when I would have tried anything to feel better. The hormones did not work! I also tried 8 anti depressants in hopes that I would feel better. Guess what? They do not work, unless you are depressed!
Anyway I had always know before I was going to have one of my spells, as I called them, but this morning was a little different. The last thing I remember was seeing 3 of everything. My next memory was 25 minutes later. I refused to go with the paramedics, and told my family that I did not sign a release form, and would have sworn to it until I found it a week later, in between my car seat. I insisted my daughter take me for coffee, and to my office, because I was going to work. My balance was really bad. My family works for me, and was very worried. They kept trying to touch me and get me to sit down, or let one of them take me to the E.R. I do not remember a lot in between, or even getting mad at them, but I guess I yelled at them, and told them that I was not going, and not to touch me! I tried to answer the phone, but kept nodding in and out of consiousness.
Finally at some point I realized I could not work, and decided to let someone take me home. The day is a blur, and I do not remember much. I did not know that it was dangerous to keep having one seizure after another, or a continuous one for over 5 minutes. I am not sure which this was, but either way-it lasted for at least an hour. I slept for hours. The worst part of the last few years was how tired I always was, and that I could not do all the things I was used to doing, and not knowing why. Having people think that I had just become lazy. For about 3 or 4 days I had trouble with balance, and remembering the words I wanted. I tried so hard to remember things from that day.
I find it so unreal that a piece of my life is missing. Why did I get so irritated and cranky? I have learned so much more on this sight, than any place else, and am thankful for everyone who helps me understand. This taking 6 different kinds of seizure meds in 7 months, because of allergies, or not being able to tolerate them, has been so hard-it's been like a roller coaster, and I haven't had time to adjust to any of them. I am disappointed in how long this is taking, and how hard it has been to concentrate from the side effects. it is also hard that friends and family do not seem to understand, especially at work, when I tell them that I cannot multi-task right now, and they cannot constantly interupt me. I am their boss, and they are used to asking me a lot of stuff, but I can't get anything done, with the phones ringing, all the noise and interuptions. any advice would be helpful. Please excuse spelling grammar, and length-I am so tired!
Anyway I had always know before I was going to have one of my spells, as I called them, but this morning was a little different. The last thing I remember was seeing 3 of everything. My next memory was 25 minutes later. I refused to go with the paramedics, and told my family that I did not sign a release form, and would have sworn to it until I found it a week later, in between my car seat. I insisted my daughter take me for coffee, and to my office, because I was going to work. My balance was really bad. My family works for me, and was very worried. They kept trying to touch me and get me to sit down, or let one of them take me to the E.R. I do not remember a lot in between, or even getting mad at them, but I guess I yelled at them, and told them that I was not going, and not to touch me! I tried to answer the phone, but kept nodding in and out of consiousness.
Finally at some point I realized I could not work, and decided to let someone take me home. The day is a blur, and I do not remember much. I did not know that it was dangerous to keep having one seizure after another, or a continuous one for over 5 minutes. I am not sure which this was, but either way-it lasted for at least an hour. I slept for hours. The worst part of the last few years was how tired I always was, and that I could not do all the things I was used to doing, and not knowing why. Having people think that I had just become lazy. For about 3 or 4 days I had trouble with balance, and remembering the words I wanted. I tried so hard to remember things from that day.
I find it so unreal that a piece of my life is missing. Why did I get so irritated and cranky? I have learned so much more on this sight, than any place else, and am thankful for everyone who helps me understand. This taking 6 different kinds of seizure meds in 7 months, because of allergies, or not being able to tolerate them, has been so hard-it's been like a roller coaster, and I haven't had time to adjust to any of them. I am disappointed in how long this is taking, and how hard it has been to concentrate from the side effects. it is also hard that friends and family do not seem to understand, especially at work, when I tell them that I cannot multi-task right now, and they cannot constantly interupt me. I am their boss, and they are used to asking me a lot of stuff, but I can't get anything done, with the phones ringing, all the noise and interuptions. any advice would be helpful. Please excuse spelling grammar, and length-I am so tired!
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