I haven't thought of it that way, but I am grateful too to have been diagnosed this late in life I guess. The symptoms started in 2005/2006 but the diagnosis came around 15 months ago, although I didn't really hear it until May of this year. I heard "seizure" then I heard "complex seizure disorder" but apparently I was told "epilepsy" but it didn't register until this May. And I didn't want to know I think. It was my last year as a full time faculty that the symptoms started, then we moved across country. I also have my PhD, but all of my degrees are in Sociology with emphasis in both Research Methods/Statistics and Criminology. I used to teach criminology courses, and I miss that a lot. I hope to do that part time when I retire. I would do that now but I need the health care benefits. And I do like the grant writing. The non profit I worked for was a children's advocacy center and so we had a lot of programs for foster children. They had a policy there that we could not foster any of the kids that came through the center. I think they knew we were all softies who wanted to take all of the kids home and do serious damage to the abusers.
I start a two week vacation on Monday and I'm trying to get two foundation grants out by Friday afternoon. But I don't write the budgets. I might draft them, but we have two offices on campus, one for government grants and one for foundation grants and they have to approve the budgets and they hold all of the financial data. For the foundation office I had been waiting FIVE weeks for financial data for one of these grants. Seriously messed up. I'm starting to get why my blood pressure is up!

I always tell my coworkers and coauthors, I can't balance my checkbook, you want to check and double check any budget I work on. But the evaluation and stats, there I'm good.
I had a seizure at work and wrote a report just prior that I had no memory of writing, and it was really good. I lose memory surrounding the partial complex seizures maybe just minutes maybe hours. It worries me what I do or say in those times. I went to a task force meeting and gave an evaluation report that was apparently well received - no memory of walking in downtown to the meeting and back, no memory of giving the report, no memory of walking back and recording what happened at the meeting. This is where I start to worry, except that the work is fine. So, I'm wondering, is it just during the seizure that my brain is having problems then the memory goes but all the time that I'm not seizing I'm fine it's just that the memory of that time gets wiped out... Ok, now I'm just rambling. Back to work.
It's great you can work from home. Good luck with the SAMHSA. I try to read through the grants.gov emails every day and keep in mind all of the faculty research interests and school projects. One of my favorite things to do, actually, is to search for prospective grants. But I can get lost for hours online looking and go in tangents learning about the faculty research areas. I try to tell myself that it keeps my brain active which is a good thing.
