Hi everyone!
I have just started CBT to try and deal with my anxiety. I have always suffered with anxiety, worry and stress which has only got worse since my seizure last July.
We talked today about the 2 episodes I have had which have been 4 years apart. The first one was in 2008 when I was pregnant. A cause was found for that one and I tried to move on.
As I have always been such a worrier, its always been at the back of my mind but generally I haven't thought too much about it as it was so long ago.
I had been dealing with sooooo much stress in the couple of months leading to the episode in July including deciding to take on a 2nd job working for the ambulance service taking out of hours calls. When I applied, I declared what happened in 2008 on my medical form and their occupational health dept rang me as they wanted to discuss it.
It then went to the forefront of my mind bringing back distressing and scary memories as I was thinking about it a lot.
When I started the job a couple of weeks later it brought up even more memories seeing the paramedics and ambulances everywhere. I started to get panicky thinking about what happened back then. I suppose I felt scared of the past.
I only ever did end up doing that first evening there which was 3 hours long! During that first training session and looking at the computer system I kept focussing on the button that said 'fit' as I knew that that would have to be pressed if someone called up needing medical help for that reason. So as you can see it was on my mind quite a lot that evening. I got home at 9.30pm, went to bed at about 11pm and then woke up at 12.30am to my husband saying the paramedics are on their way as I had had a seizure.
I don't think I was partularly confused. I think I was more in shock that night. My heart was racing, I was sweating so much that my husband had to open the window. I suppose I was also lucky that I had no incontinence, no muscle soreness and only a minor tongue bite.
It is just so strange that I hadn't thought about that first seizure much for so long and when it re-surfaces itself in my mind, I had another one!
I know its probably just a coincidence but thought I would get my thoughts down on 'paper' so to speak!
I have just started CBT to try and deal with my anxiety. I have always suffered with anxiety, worry and stress which has only got worse since my seizure last July.
We talked today about the 2 episodes I have had which have been 4 years apart. The first one was in 2008 when I was pregnant. A cause was found for that one and I tried to move on.
As I have always been such a worrier, its always been at the back of my mind but generally I haven't thought too much about it as it was so long ago.
I had been dealing with sooooo much stress in the couple of months leading to the episode in July including deciding to take on a 2nd job working for the ambulance service taking out of hours calls. When I applied, I declared what happened in 2008 on my medical form and their occupational health dept rang me as they wanted to discuss it.
It then went to the forefront of my mind bringing back distressing and scary memories as I was thinking about it a lot.
When I started the job a couple of weeks later it brought up even more memories seeing the paramedics and ambulances everywhere. I started to get panicky thinking about what happened back then. I suppose I felt scared of the past.
I only ever did end up doing that first evening there which was 3 hours long! During that first training session and looking at the computer system I kept focussing on the button that said 'fit' as I knew that that would have to be pressed if someone called up needing medical help for that reason. So as you can see it was on my mind quite a lot that evening. I got home at 9.30pm, went to bed at about 11pm and then woke up at 12.30am to my husband saying the paramedics are on their way as I had had a seizure.
I don't think I was partularly confused. I think I was more in shock that night. My heart was racing, I was sweating so much that my husband had to open the window. I suppose I was also lucky that I had no incontinence, no muscle soreness and only a minor tongue bite.
It is just so strange that I hadn't thought about that first seizure much for so long and when it re-surfaces itself in my mind, I had another one!
I know its probably just a coincidence but thought I would get my thoughts down on 'paper' so to speak!
