Could this be seizure activity?

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Alright, so I'm frustrated because I'm having a very strange but consistent series of events, and I'm wondering if it's just a weird quirk, or if this is seizure related.

Some background: I'm a bit of a writer, and am a regular in the Creative Writing subforum, and I think in pictures and moving images rather than auditory words. I'm also more prone to Simple Partials, though I have Complex Partials as well, and very rarely I'll have a T/C seizure.

Alright... so here's what has been happening:

I've been having a lot of great writing ideas for stories, poems, and such. However, every time I try to write them down so I'll remember them, I get interrupted. Every single time, and in a specific order.

> I have an idea. (in the form of a mental image.)
> I take said idea, and transfer it into words in my head.
> I go to write those words down.
> Mind goes blank for a few seconds.
> I have four to five hiccups, each about seven to ten seconds apart.
> After the hiccups are done, I'm back to normal.
> From the initial blank-out, until the hiccups are done, I can't type/write/scribble anything down at all, it's like my brain says "No. You're not doing that." and I just... can't. :?

It's weird though, because I can write/type about anything else. I can sit here and write about how I can't write about my ideas, but I can't write about what those ideas are, or it starts all over again. It's weird though, because this doesn't seem to be random, it's consistent and it happens every time, but only about those ideas, not about anything else.

I've had a long and kind of stressful weekend, and I'm under more stress than usual anyway at the moment just due to life situations, but other than this I've been doing well the past week or so... No real seizure activity at all except for a few partials this past week, so things have been going pretty well. Except for this... quirk? I don't even know what to call it. It's never happened before though, that much I do know. I just want it to go away...

Has anyone else had anything like this happen, or has my brain just decided it wants to toy with and frustrate me? :ponder:
 
Hi Silat! I don't have any input on the events you are experiencing ( I am new to the world of E, my daughter has nocturnal seizures I believe) but just wanted to say I'm sorry, that must be extremely frustrating as a writer. Hope you get some answers or have some improvement soon!! :)
 
I've experienced something similar. But what I'd really like to say is how about using a voice recorder. Don't wait to write it... just say it quick before its gone. Just curious if a change might stop the cycle. Also, you mentioned aphasia before? Is it getting worse somehow? Didn't you just start a new Med or up one of your doses? Just thoughts?
 
Hm that is interesting. I couldn't say if it was seizure activity or not... I guess I have something SORT of similar where certain images/thoughts seem to trigger partials. It's always the same images, too. Like for whatever reason, whenever I see or think about fire trucks/fire/firemen I feel a partial coming (mental maybe? I don't know) I wonder if something like that is happening to you when you try to write your ideas, as I DO know seizure activity can affect speech/etc. Of course, I have no idea if mine was real seizure activity or just my mind playing tricks on me, so I guess it's hard to compare the two.
 
Is this a left-brain right-brain thing where pushing the mental effort from the creative side (usually right) to the words/language/writing (usually left) is triggerring something?
Totally with the idea of voice recording so as to bypass the acttivity of writing. In fact if you could get it out without having to put it into words at all might be even better - can you draw the ideas? I know that's still pencil-work... Video, sign-language...?

Gosh it sounds so frustrating to have these wonderful ideas and then lose them. For me, it's just my age and/or hormones... mental deterioration aggravated by life stresses, and I wonder afterwards did I even actually have the idea itself, or just the fine successful satisfied feeling of "Wow, I have an idea"?? :( I do often have issues expressing, communicating what's going on in my head, and I found that an introductory course in signing has been very helpful; possibly precisely because it's so basic; I don't have to choose between big huge enormous giganiferous etc I just do a size-large sign.

Hope that's a help. Thinking is hard enough, thinking about thinking is a linguistic nightmare!
 
Well last night it was quite an issue... didn't get anything done.
This morning, after I had gotten up and was fully awake (I tend to wake in a brain fog, so it takes a good five to ten minutes to clear my head out and start functioning) it no longer seems to be a problem. I'm writing the things I can remember from last night just fine... :?

@RunningGirl85 - Interesting that specific thoughts can trigger partials. Maybe that's what was happening to me, but I've never had anything like that happen before.

Hope that's a help. Thinking is hard enough, thinking about thinking is a linguistic nightmare!
I'm thinking about how I was thinking about not thinking last night... ;)
Seriously though, normally my mind has been a place of retreat for me, so it was weird having a specific thought or action trigger things. Interesting thought though about the right brain - left brain theory...

I tend to have a creativity spike around when I have seizures, and they seem to originate from my right side as partials and spread when they get more severe. I certainly hope, by being creative, I'm not training my brain to use pathways that have been causing seizures...
 
This happens to me, although for me its a myoclonic seizure (a form of generalized seizure, which is why the brain fog is there). My hiccups will initially be the myoclonic jerks in the diaphragm. Then if they are bad enough, it sometime triggers real hiccups for about 4-12 hours.
 
Hm that is interesting. I couldn't say if it was seizure activity or not... I guess I have something SORT of similar where certain images/thoughts seem to trigger partials. It's always the same images, too. Like for whatever reason, whenever I see or think about fire trucks/fire/firemen I feel a partial coming (mental maybe? I don't know) I wonder if something like that is happening to you when you try to write your ideas, as I DO know seizure activity can affect speech/etc. Of course, I have no idea if mine was real seizure activity or just my mind playing tricks on me, so I guess it's hard to compare the two.

Wow :( is this some sort of PTSD? Or a memory your brain has with seizures and calling 911. Were you in a fire as a child? The brain is so amazing isn't it? I know we have seizures, and amazing wouldn't always be the right word, but this thread is making me think about how complex our brains are. Being a science geek and all... its fascinating. Silat ... so glad you're back on track. Even better ... I just read your two new poems. Excellent work.
 
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