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Hi,
I sent out a message to an admin asking for permission for a crosspost from epilepsy.org.uk (Epilepsy Action UK) but got no response. So I'll crosspost it to here regardless.
I posted this post a little while ago on fri, 19/06/2020. In mean time I've done a lot of the thinking and stuff in my head I talked about there. I post there sometimes because I'm some kind of team member with Epilepsy Action UK. I kind of trust them and their community, as uh.. I kind of lead them.
In mean time I've sent this message to a competing hospital asking for a second opinion (luckily, we can do that here in Belgium.)
Really, anything useful to me to support me, guide me, reinforce me, etc is welcome. I'm at such a loss of what to do because this is all such black territory. Heck, my memory is bad enough I don't even know what to ask for from you guys! I already forgot what I wrote.
) I'l thankful for any advice I can take with me, positive or negative.
Cheers,
Anna
I sent out a message to an admin asking for permission for a crosspost from epilepsy.org.uk (Epilepsy Action UK) but got no response. So I'll crosspost it to here regardless.
I posted this post a little while ago on fri, 19/06/2020. In mean time I've done a lot of the thinking and stuff in my head I talked about there. I post there sometimes because I'm some kind of team member with Epilepsy Action UK. I kind of trust them and their community, as uh.. I kind of lead them.

Hi,
I recently saw my neurologist, had an EEG and we discussed the results. I was a bit apalled by the fact she's dismissing it as possibly epilepsy if the short mere minutes EEG didn't show anything special, because (what she mentioned) of no generalization in the near past, or no one picking up on it. She also said that my psych reports mentioned trauma and psychosis like symptoms. This isn't a surprise! I have DID because of past events, and I have in the past during intense flashbacks had psychosis like events. But never have they ever been the same feelings as I have during seizures.
I've always been a bit of a 'loner'. This means that people don't often pick up on it and if I did have a generalisation, I might've never known. She also mentioned the people at the psychiatric clinic never saw a seizure. How should I know? -not sure- When I told them (the hospital) the events that happened as a kid got worse and they might be seizures, they told me off for 'making it up for attention'; all because as a younger teen I admitted to being suicidal after a friend landed herself a bed after an attempt in the same room as I was on the ward. (She scared me into it, cause I didn't want anyone else to feel the way I did when they saw me attempt.)
My neuro mentioned the symptoms are worrying but as the EEG is not above normal levels she didn't think it was important, even if it's impairing me more than I dare to admit (sorry.)
I'm going to post a pastebin of a discord message I sent in the server as I just came out of the appointment. My memory is very terrible and I can't cohere long sentences very well.
Thanks for anyone giving me any idea of how to convince my neurologist that it's not mental illness; as this has been looked at before. That is, however, the feeling she's giving me.
The EEG was clean and the neurologist wasn't quite sure I had obvious symptoms because I've had focal seizures for this long without regular generalisation, and in general a history of psych professionals telling me I was psychotic. There's a history of weird experiences the psych profs wrote off as psychosis which she asked about too. I told her it's probably the Epilepsy as she suggested it might me, because I've never been psychotic. The voices and strange experiences were both not psychosis nor the same thing. The strange experiences were probably seizures and the voices are of course because I have DID. Safe to say in general that I'm kind of scared my doctor will "dump" me and write me off for psychological issues. That she'll send me away with "it's not Epilepsy" but also no alternative explanation
In mean time I've sent this message to a competing hospital asking for a second opinion (luckily, we can do that here in Belgium.)

Really, anything useful to me to support me, guide me, reinforce me, etc is welcome. I'm at such a loss of what to do because this is all such black territory. Heck, my memory is bad enough I don't even know what to ask for from you guys! I already forgot what I wrote.

Cheers,
Anna