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I was diagnosed later in life, when I was 38, I'm 41 now
and since then I'd had a hard time accepting that the epilepsy was real, like the TC seizures didn't exist
I had another TC type seizure tonight in a restaurant (note to self: lights crowd and noise perhaps trigger?) and at periods tonight now, about 5 hours later, I've been having memory blips, recollections of my last major seizure - and also it has been easier to believe
it's like levels of acceptance - and the levels of recollection kindof affirm this acceptance
I had been experiencing a sort of paranoia that people didn't believe I had epilepsy - maybe externalizing my own disbelief onto others, assuming people had the same disbelief
but this seizure tonight seemed in a way beneficial, ironically, to really open my acceptance
has anyone experienced similar sort of things?
being diagnosed of any disease I guess would bring a period of disbelief
I shouldn't imagine myself as being so unique I guess
millions and millions have epilepsy - as well as all diseases...
I guess in a way it's egotism - thinking I'm better than this sort of thing - or don't deserve it. But it's just a part of life.
Perhaps God sees us as individuals strong enough to tolerate a disease that has to have a place in humanity.
Thanks to you all in this forum - this has been really beneficial to me!
and since then I'd had a hard time accepting that the epilepsy was real, like the TC seizures didn't exist
I had another TC type seizure tonight in a restaurant (note to self: lights crowd and noise perhaps trigger?) and at periods tonight now, about 5 hours later, I've been having memory blips, recollections of my last major seizure - and also it has been easier to believe
it's like levels of acceptance - and the levels of recollection kindof affirm this acceptance
I had been experiencing a sort of paranoia that people didn't believe I had epilepsy - maybe externalizing my own disbelief onto others, assuming people had the same disbelief
but this seizure tonight seemed in a way beneficial, ironically, to really open my acceptance
has anyone experienced similar sort of things?
being diagnosed of any disease I guess would bring a period of disbelief
I shouldn't imagine myself as being so unique I guess
millions and millions have epilepsy - as well as all diseases...
I guess in a way it's egotism - thinking I'm better than this sort of thing - or don't deserve it. But it's just a part of life.
Perhaps God sees us as individuals strong enough to tolerate a disease that has to have a place in humanity.
Thanks to you all in this forum - this has been really beneficial to me!