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Long story short I was on keppra about four months before I started getting moody. I was also nearing the end of pregnancy so when I broke my toilet in a fit of rage it was blown off as pregnancy hormones.
The rage continued after pregnancy and my neurologist agreed it was likely just hormones returning. My baby is now five months old and the rage is continuing to worsen and I'm honestly beginning to believe the Keppra is the culprit. I am yelling at my six year old child, something I have NEVER done. I am yelling at customer ser if employees, something I have again never done. I am breaking things, snapping over the most insignificant issues, I'm impossible to live with. I go from being perfectly happy to the worst possible mood within a fraction of a second over something as small as onions on my burger. I cry about everything and I will admit I have recently on occasion thought that my kids and husband would be better off without me. I'm too rational to kill myself but the feelings of being a failure and a letdown and worthless are very real for me at the present.
I also was put on topamax this weekend. I started on 25mg2x daily. I'm on 1000mg 2x daily of keppra. In 9 days I am supposed to increase my topamax to 50mg 2x daily.
Problem is since I've taken it I have had an increase in my complex partials. I've have four I'm fairly certain in the last two days and more simples. I feel like I did before I was medicated at all. I feel like I did leading up to my last big seizure.
So I called my neurologist to see him, hopes of getting off the keppra and to discuss the topamax and find out if I should still increase after 9 days considering how I've been since starting... They can't fit me in for 15 days.
So I'm at home taking care of this little baby afraid to even hold her because i can't remember how I got in this room or what I'm supposed to be doing (one of those kind of days)
So anyone have an idea what I should be doing here?
The rage continued after pregnancy and my neurologist agreed it was likely just hormones returning. My baby is now five months old and the rage is continuing to worsen and I'm honestly beginning to believe the Keppra is the culprit. I am yelling at my six year old child, something I have NEVER done. I am yelling at customer ser if employees, something I have again never done. I am breaking things, snapping over the most insignificant issues, I'm impossible to live with. I go from being perfectly happy to the worst possible mood within a fraction of a second over something as small as onions on my burger. I cry about everything and I will admit I have recently on occasion thought that my kids and husband would be better off without me. I'm too rational to kill myself but the feelings of being a failure and a letdown and worthless are very real for me at the present.
I also was put on topamax this weekend. I started on 25mg2x daily. I'm on 1000mg 2x daily of keppra. In 9 days I am supposed to increase my topamax to 50mg 2x daily.
Problem is since I've taken it I have had an increase in my complex partials. I've have four I'm fairly certain in the last two days and more simples. I feel like I did before I was medicated at all. I feel like I did leading up to my last big seizure.
So I called my neurologist to see him, hopes of getting off the keppra and to discuss the topamax and find out if I should still increase after 9 days considering how I've been since starting... They can't fit me in for 15 days.
So I'm at home taking care of this little baby afraid to even hold her because i can't remember how I got in this room or what I'm supposed to be doing (one of those kind of days)
So anyone have an idea what I should be doing here?