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So I am pretty sure that I've completely gone crazy and I don't trust myself. Several times today while shopping at the mall, I would round a corner and unexpectedly meet myself in a mirror...and EVERY time it happened that way, it took me a moment to realize that I was looking at myself!! Will someone PLEASE explain that to me? At the same time, however, everyone I encountered at the mall and the Olive Garden looked very very familiar, like I SHOULD know them but can't place them....and my husband kept telling me that they were not people we knew. So strangers look familiar to me, but I don't look familiar to myself -- does that make any sense? Has anyone experienced that? Is it the Keppra? My house doesn't feel familiar at all, but I know intellectually that this is my house because there are pictures of me on the walls.
My short term memory is terrible, and it's making me so incredibly confused - i have no back story on anything. I was hanging up clothes this afternoon, and I kept saying, "when did I buy this pair of pants? how long have I had this shirt? did I just buy that purse?" I guess on a positive note, it's like instantly getting a whole new wardrobe, I just really didn't want it to happen in this way, because I FORGOT that I owned the clothes!
Oh, and this morning, my husband and son gave me my mother's day present. and my hubby said, "is this what you were wanting? do you remember telling me that you wanted this object and pointing it out to me in a magazine, specifying the color and telling me where it could be purchased?" So let me just tell you all that i have ZERO memory of having that specific conversation with my husband.
So I'm just really questioning reality at this point -- what is real? Am I dreaming all of this, because that would make more sense to me. I have this urge to do something that is really crazy, because I'm thinking that maybe if I do something crazy, it will be enough to "wake" me up from this "dream" I feel I'm living. How much time have I lost? How much time will I lose? Will I remember posting this message in another hour? If I'm self-aware at this moment in time, how come tomorrow I'll not remember this moment of self-awareness?
UGH! This totally BITES! I wish I had answers...i'm just swimming in a sea of confusion, that only gets more confusing every day.
My short term memory is terrible, and it's making me so incredibly confused - i have no back story on anything. I was hanging up clothes this afternoon, and I kept saying, "when did I buy this pair of pants? how long have I had this shirt? did I just buy that purse?" I guess on a positive note, it's like instantly getting a whole new wardrobe, I just really didn't want it to happen in this way, because I FORGOT that I owned the clothes!
Oh, and this morning, my husband and son gave me my mother's day present. and my hubby said, "is this what you were wanting? do you remember telling me that you wanted this object and pointing it out to me in a magazine, specifying the color and telling me where it could be purchased?" So let me just tell you all that i have ZERO memory of having that specific conversation with my husband.
So I'm just really questioning reality at this point -- what is real? Am I dreaming all of this, because that would make more sense to me. I have this urge to do something that is really crazy, because I'm thinking that maybe if I do something crazy, it will be enough to "wake" me up from this "dream" I feel I'm living. How much time have I lost? How much time will I lose? Will I remember posting this message in another hour? If I'm self-aware at this moment in time, how come tomorrow I'll not remember this moment of self-awareness?
UGH! This totally BITES! I wish I had answers...i'm just swimming in a sea of confusion, that only gets more confusing every day.