Here is my struggle with our consciousness.
I have thought similarly, that our consciousness is rooted in something greater than the physical. Something beyond our comprehension. Through most of my auras, I always maintain a sense of self, my independent thought, my ability to analyze. This is all lost when experiencing auras that effect my inner monologue, my stream of thought. I’m inundated with trivial words, all falling and shattering into other words, a process on repeat. I can’t think, I just bare witness and my memory records. Yes I acknowledge my ability to recognize this fault could allude to there being a fundamental self or psyche, but one could also argue that my ability to recognize this is contingent on my recovery. My sense of greater self only exists in an uninterrupted stream of conciseness that gives rise to my thought process. Only once it’s reestablished do I have the ability to explore the memories formed during the aura.
The next thing to consider is the idea of a lesser self. That during my inability to think I am still self aware. One could argue this as our psyche, unfailing to identify its existence as it is independent of our brain. In contrast one could also argue that this is the most simplistic core function of our brain (much like a computers bios system) and nothing greater.
There are many layers in a computer. From it as a whole, to the motherboard, hard drive and ram, down to the circuitry, down to pulses of energy relayed through a connected network. Even with these layers, a computer is still rooted in the physical world while it creates a digital world…. like our physical brain creates consciousness.
My personal experience has forced me to consider this as a real possibility. It’s a source of inner strife regarding my beliefs. In resolution I have subscribed to the belief of ‘possibility’. I accept that I won’t know and I should live an active balanced life that follows my moral beliefs.
Intuitionally this may see to contrast what I have stated above but I believe there is something beyond our understanding that is the source of life... that extra ingredient that every living thing has, that pulses through us. Is it similar in concept to how electrical energy runs a computer? That it is necessary to give rise to life, but the components within that life form dictate its capabilities and limitations. Components like our brain that give rise to consciousness and consciousness cannot exist without either. It’s all very interesting. I still I like to believe in the mystic. I’m just haunted by inalienable truths.
On a side note, lucid dreams are the best, but mine are few and far between. I just have vivid dreams which still provide entertainment.
) though we may have auras which suspend the familiar characteristics of consciousness I think there is reason for faith in the notion that our perception is too limited to reasonably justify any comprehensive grasp on the nature of consciousness, so we must admit it extends beyond what we recognize and we must admit that we don't know for how far beyond what we grasp it extends.
