So in early September of this year, not too long ago, I had a tonic clonic seizure in school (I'm 18). Starting a year ago I've had multiple minor partial seizures, which I didn't even know we're partial seizures until researching after my big seizure.
Anyway, every single test has been done about, cat scan, eeg after the seizure, 72 hour eeg a bit after, an MRI, and a bunch of blood tests. And nothing's shown signs of anything including epilepsy so I've haven't been diagnosed yet at least, and I haven't had any type of seizure since so I'm kind of in a bubble of not knowing whats wrong with me and not seeing any doctor since there's no more to really see, so this sucks in itself because I go everyday knowing I might have another seizure since I don't know whats wrong.
I haven't hung out with my friends at all outside of school since then because they haven't called me to hang out, which I think is due to them thinking I'm going to have a seizure. I can't drive anywhere for a few months on doctors recommendation (didn't get my license taken away), so I can't drive anywhere to do something so I'm pretty much stuck home when I'm not at school or work. I don't watch tv or play video games, I do stuff outside when I'm home like gardening and landscaping, but there's only so much of that, and it's even more limited due to it being fall. So I usually just spend hours sitting on the couch either doing nothing or being on the internet.
I actually look forward to work now, although now my hours are cut down because I have to work with my parents schedules. I haven't been able to visit colleges because I can't drive (my parents are willing to do this stuff until I ask, lol). I've been having to take the bus to school since I can't drive.
So overall I've got fear because I don't know whats wrong with me, I've got no friends to hang with, limited hobbies, limited work hours, and no car. I hate to create a sobber story here, but my life has just sucked so much since this seizure. And if I have another one and them find out I have epilepsy, I don't know how I'm going to be able to live like this.
I don't know how posting this helps me in anyway, but it makes me feel a bit better for some reason.
Anyway, every single test has been done about, cat scan, eeg after the seizure, 72 hour eeg a bit after, an MRI, and a bunch of blood tests. And nothing's shown signs of anything including epilepsy so I've haven't been diagnosed yet at least, and I haven't had any type of seizure since so I'm kind of in a bubble of not knowing whats wrong with me and not seeing any doctor since there's no more to really see, so this sucks in itself because I go everyday knowing I might have another seizure since I don't know whats wrong.
I haven't hung out with my friends at all outside of school since then because they haven't called me to hang out, which I think is due to them thinking I'm going to have a seizure. I can't drive anywhere for a few months on doctors recommendation (didn't get my license taken away), so I can't drive anywhere to do something so I'm pretty much stuck home when I'm not at school or work. I don't watch tv or play video games, I do stuff outside when I'm home like gardening and landscaping, but there's only so much of that, and it's even more limited due to it being fall. So I usually just spend hours sitting on the couch either doing nothing or being on the internet.
I actually look forward to work now, although now my hours are cut down because I have to work with my parents schedules. I haven't been able to visit colleges because I can't drive (my parents are willing to do this stuff until I ask, lol). I've been having to take the bus to school since I can't drive.
So overall I've got fear because I don't know whats wrong with me, I've got no friends to hang with, limited hobbies, limited work hours, and no car. I hate to create a sobber story here, but my life has just sucked so much since this seizure. And if I have another one and them find out I have epilepsy, I don't know how I'm going to be able to live like this.
I don't know how posting this helps me in anyway, but it makes me feel a bit better for some reason.