It is so hard trying to describe it as it all becomes a blur. I was really frightened from mine, nothing else ever gives me the feeling that does. I would just grab my fiances hand tightly or somehow he could tell by my face or lack of response. You're not alone I have been there. Luckily me moving from evil keppra to lamotrogine I have managed to control them, I have had to really look after myself health wise, so lots exercise, cutting back on caffeine and not drinking lots. I have some dips still especially when I'm run down or stressed. However I'm not as frightened anymore because I know I am stronger as a person and just don't care if to a stranger I look daft!
I am however in the issue of driving or not driving. I don't have full blown nasty partial seizures like I used to, but every so often I get a weird feel a bit like an aura but not quite the same... So I don't know if I should reapply for my driving license or not. Really tough to figure out what's going on in that brain!!
If you need anything honestly happy to chat to anyone about it x