I don't know if these are just feelings or if during this whole thing that happened.... I don't know, its hard to explain. This psychosis thing after my seizures in April has me all mixed upped but I don't feel welcomed in a lot of places. I have really liked this place and people since I found it.
I feel out of place now
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As Neil says, if there is one place where people understand odd feelings, thoughts, behaviors, etc. this is it. We all have our times of feeling isolated, out-of-it, unsure of which way is which, not sure if we even know what we have or have not done. You'll be fine, and we'll always be here. (Unless we're somewhere else, but in that case we will almost certainly be back. Right? (Or was that left?)) 
Keep smiling!
Carry on!
Keep smiling!
Carry on!
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Just to echo the others -- you are definitely welcome here. Feeling mixed-up is practically a requirement for CWE members. I hope your brain gets on solid footing soon (despite how contradictory that may sound).
I hope your brain gets on solid footing soon (despite how contradictory that may sound).
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Penny I don't know what happened but would it help if I said I was misdiagnosed through the mental health system for 10 years before someone finally figured out my "psychosis" was actually seizures? All those years they kept putting me on anti-psychotic meds (which actually made things worse) and I had no clue I had a seizure disorder.
Thank you everyone. Nothing has felt right for so long I have been doubting everything and almost everyone. Like I said in the other post I'm starting to feel more normal (my normal ) but I have to keep checking thoughts and making sure they are right or wrong. I hope I never have a problem with postical psychosis again. I was reading some back post that I don't even remember writing. When the dr. asked me what month it was I told him Febuary. That's how bad its been.
I just know I have offended so many people when it began and I thought I might of here too and my reasoning was weird. I'm glad I have you all to talk too. Nobody else could begin to understand! Thanks!
) but I have to keep checking thoughts and making sure they are right or wrong. I hope I never have a problem with postical psychosis again. I was reading some back post that I don't even remember writing. When the dr. asked me what month it was I told him Febuary. That's how bad its been. I just know I have offended so many people when it began and I thought I might of here too and my reasoning was weird. I'm glad I have you all to talk too. Nobody else could begin to understand! Thanks!
Of course you are welcome. More than welcome. Maybe one of the reasons you feel out of place is that you don't actually remember all the things that made you feel welcome before the 'crisis' (for want of a better word). So I can only assure you that you have been a much-valued part of this odd crowd for a looong, long time. As the rest have said, many of us have gone through similar, so we do identify and we don't judge. As for the self-doubt, that is understandable. It's so easy, and actually natural, to stop trusting your perceptions when you've just come out of finding out that perceptions aren't always trustworthy. You will steadily regain trust in your thoughts as you get used to the fact that you now have trustworthy perceptions of the world and yourself. For me, it has never taken as long as it seemed it would to get to that point.
I don't know why you think you've offended so many people? I haven't seen any offensive posts and if there were any, I'd have known where they came from and why--that's why we're a supportive community for these weird and wonderful ways of ours: because we get it. You got rather firm in only one post about driving (and I agreed with you) but that was all, and we've all done that, so no harm no foul.
I don't know why you think you've offended so many people? I haven't seen any offensive posts and if there were any, I'd have known where they came from and why--that's why we're a supportive community for these weird and wonderful ways of ours: because we get it. You got rather firm in only one post about driving (and I agreed with you) but that was all, and we've all done that, so no harm no foul.
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Hey Penny,
As all have said, all of use here at CWE do understand and have at some time during our seizure experience(s) gone thru something where we do feel very out of place. Plus, in your case, you had a stroke so it is a bit more to deal with and it will take time to get used to a different "normal". A different mindset and lifestyle than the previous one. Much slower and calmer. And on my terms.
I feel so out of place, too, around my own family now, so I don't see them very often any more. They just cannot or refuse to understand the things I go thru and my memory loss, depression. I had to adjust to my new "normal".
Like Kirsten said, I like your new profile pic, too.
As all have said, all of use here at CWE do understand and have at some time during our seizure experience(s) gone thru something where we do feel very out of place. Plus, in your case, you had a stroke so it is a bit more to deal with and it will take time to get used to a different "normal". A different mindset and lifestyle than the previous one. Much slower and calmer. And on my terms.
I feel so out of place, too, around my own family now, so I don't see them very often any more. They just cannot or refuse to understand the things I go thru and my memory loss, depression. I had to adjust to my new "normal".
Like Kirsten said, I like your new profile pic, too.
I was diagnosed Bipolar 12 years ago. Two years ago I had a stroke (which the nuero at the hospital believes was caused by Latuda I was taking to stabilize my moods. My seizures started in a couple months as a result of the stroke. I have Temporal lobe epilepsy. Simple and complex partial seizures w/ generalized also.
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Hey Penny!
I haven't noticed you around for a bit and am glad to see you back. I know what you mean by feeling out of place. Sometimes I feel out of place with my best friends for no reason at all.
My wife is bipolar so I like to let her cry every once in a while. I know it can be a huge help.
There are only two forums I have found with such tight communities and this, of course, is one of them. I feel like I have made many friends here, yourself included, and I hope others feel the same of me. No one should feel out of place. You should only feel loved here.
I haven't noticed you around for a bit and am glad to see you back. I know what you mean by feeling out of place. Sometimes I feel out of place with my best friends for no reason at all.
My wife is bipolar so I like to let her cry every once in a while. I know it can be a huge help.
There are only two forums I have found with such tight communities and this, of course, is one of them. I feel like I have made many friends here, yourself included, and I hope others feel the same of me. No one should feel out of place. You should only feel loved here.
Thanks N Sperlo. It really hasn't just been here its been my whole life really since all this happened. You know when I was at ER and the nurse asked me what month it was, I told her Febuary. That's how out of it I have been. So its not just been here but feeling that way about everyone here has had to be the toughest because I have always felt at home with everyone here. I just have to keep telling myself right now that all my thoughts and feelings are not all real right now. It is getting easier as I can now express what I am feeling I guess. I am so fortunate to have all of you to turn to.
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I found this thread just now and wanted to add something - and glad to see you btw
I've been coming to the idea I've had an ictal psychosis, a couple years ago now. I've come to believe I've had amnesia about it, but as it seems to have been readjusting in my brain (?) I've been having wisps of recollections about "it" that come to me a lot at times that remind me of a frog's vocal sac. The sac under their mouth that blows up with air. It's like a 'projection' on the sac, but it's like a full sensation kind of thing, not just a visual.
Very weird, and nauseating at times. It's like recalling amnesia, but having nothing to substantiate the "reality" I'm "recalling". Maybe I'm imagining the whole thing(?) ugh.
Anyway - welcome
I've been coming to the idea I've had an ictal psychosis, a couple years ago now. I've come to believe I've had amnesia about it, but as it seems to have been readjusting in my brain (?) I've been having wisps of recollections about "it" that come to me a lot at times that remind me of a frog's vocal sac. The sac under their mouth that blows up with air. It's like a 'projection' on the sac, but it's like a full sensation kind of thing, not just a visual.
Very weird, and nauseating at times. It's like recalling amnesia, but having nothing to substantiate the "reality" I'm "recalling". Maybe I'm imagining the whole thing(?) ugh.
Anyway - welcome