Going to the state university on thurs. Ive gotta ask you folks, Im kinda leary of just telling any Dr. has anyone ever had these sezire's that bring strange thoughts and actions. like murderous thoughts? I have these flashes of bizzar thoughts that seem to be the sezire itself? I get the zapping in my head and become somewhat disorted, I dont want the Dr. to lock me up or anything! but I do want to help the Dr. help me, so is this somthing their gonna have a name for or will they say Im syco? I also have servre panic attacks! if I hear a siren I freak out and have unrelistic worrys about my children ect. I have had problems in the past with violence, they say my eeg was very abnormal, but thats about it. my childhood is not normal so Im not sure if its epilepsy I have. at the age of three I started murdering animals in the most brutal of manner. I was raised in a violent household , Im not sure if that has anything to do with it, I dont know how long Ive had this because Ive always had these problems and this is the first time Ive ever been checked. as a child I liked to be left alone, hated to get around people, well mabey someone can help, it really felt good to tell someone this. I feel good about it. this is the first time I ever spoke of such. thank you. Crowinthewind.