Matthew74
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I just moved from Alexandria, VA to Red Wing, MN. My mother retired, so I had to find a new place to live. I'm going to start school for music instrument repair in the fall. So far things are a little rough.
My planned apartment did not work out. It was really gross, kind of scary, and I knew there was no way I could live with it. So, I am staying with a nice guy I had inquired with earlier. The good thing is that I have a place to stay, the problem is that my room is a loft with no wall on one side. The guy is retired, doesn't work or do anything else, sleeps on the couch, and watches TV all day. I mean ALL DAY. It drives me nuts and I can't block it out or concentrate. It's also depressing. I just can't feel at home or be productive. I find myself just wanting to get out.
I tried hard all this week to find an apartment but everything in town is taken. I found one nice apartment that I would jump on, but transportation would be a major issue there, and for that reason I would not be able to work at all when school starts. There will be lots of apartments available in a month when the college gets out. The big problem is that all my stuff is coming on the moving truck Saturday. I will be living "crash pad" style for a month, and will have to move everything again. I have been going nuts with moving for weeks now and it's not going to end.
So, in addition to all the other moving stress, I haven't been feeling very good physically, don't have a "home", and during the last week have been running up to some hard limitations because of my epilepsy, like not driving and insecurity about my health care needs. And, to be honest I am rather lost about my whole reason for moving in the first place. Coming here wasn't entirely my choice. I didn't have anywhere else to go. In the fall I'm going to be learning to repair musical instruments, which should be fun, but it's not something I ever thought I would be doing, and at 39 I'm pretty disappointed with my life. I did my best, it's just that you imagine yourself one way your whole life, and then find yourself somewhere else even though you didn't do anything wrong.
I went to college and graduate school even though it was hard for me, but I end up living in a cheap place, and with a questionable future. I never did drugs, didn't get drunk, or any of that, but it's like none of the good stuff I did matters. It matters to ME, but I need to make a living, which means it has to matter to someone else. I don't want to live in some nasty place, for an uncertain future, and feel like a looser.
I should mention that although my prospects seem limited, Red Wing itself has some nice aspects. Right now I'm in an old fashioned fast food joint/diner that is a nice spot, and earlier today had my hair cut in an honest to goodness barber shop!
:huh:
My planned apartment did not work out. It was really gross, kind of scary, and I knew there was no way I could live with it. So, I am staying with a nice guy I had inquired with earlier. The good thing is that I have a place to stay, the problem is that my room is a loft with no wall on one side. The guy is retired, doesn't work or do anything else, sleeps on the couch, and watches TV all day. I mean ALL DAY. It drives me nuts and I can't block it out or concentrate. It's also depressing. I just can't feel at home or be productive. I find myself just wanting to get out.
I tried hard all this week to find an apartment but everything in town is taken. I found one nice apartment that I would jump on, but transportation would be a major issue there, and for that reason I would not be able to work at all when school starts. There will be lots of apartments available in a month when the college gets out. The big problem is that all my stuff is coming on the moving truck Saturday. I will be living "crash pad" style for a month, and will have to move everything again. I have been going nuts with moving for weeks now and it's not going to end.
So, in addition to all the other moving stress, I haven't been feeling very good physically, don't have a "home", and during the last week have been running up to some hard limitations because of my epilepsy, like not driving and insecurity about my health care needs. And, to be honest I am rather lost about my whole reason for moving in the first place. Coming here wasn't entirely my choice. I didn't have anywhere else to go. In the fall I'm going to be learning to repair musical instruments, which should be fun, but it's not something I ever thought I would be doing, and at 39 I'm pretty disappointed with my life. I did my best, it's just that you imagine yourself one way your whole life, and then find yourself somewhere else even though you didn't do anything wrong.
I went to college and graduate school even though it was hard for me, but I end up living in a cheap place, and with a questionable future. I never did drugs, didn't get drunk, or any of that, but it's like none of the good stuff I did matters. It matters to ME, but I need to make a living, which means it has to matter to someone else. I don't want to live in some nasty place, for an uncertain future, and feel like a looser.
I should mention that although my prospects seem limited, Red Wing itself has some nice aspects. Right now I'm in an old fashioned fast food joint/diner that is a nice spot, and earlier today had my hair cut in an honest to goodness barber shop!
:huh:
