Well this morning the kids got off to school late. I was so frustrated because it's a constant problem. In retrospect I can admit it's partly my fault because i'm not monitoring them enough in getting ready but they are 10, 7 and 6 and for some reason I keep thinking they'll do the right thing and just get ready instead of playing around. Albert Einstein defined insanity as doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result so i'm obviously insane. Anyway, when I realised that my eldest didn't even have her socks and shoes on I blew a gasket and yelled so much that I was starting to see stars in front of me. I could see my youngest was there trying not to cry and when i'd calmed down a bit I asked her to come over, lifted her up and gave her a cuddle explaining I wasn't angry at her (she was actually the first child dressed and ready). On the way to school I had calmed down somewhat but was still ranting "i'm sorry that I yelled but do you understand the reason why I get so upset is because........" Anyway by the time we get to school and I tell the kids I love them and hope they have a good day I asked my eldest to come around the other side of the car. I was talking much more calmly now (although I still felt rather stressed about the whole situation, I hate losing control of my emotions like that). I told her that at 10 we have a problem and we need to work on our relationship because I don't like the way she speaks to me (attitude plus) and I don't like get angry and I don't want her to end up hating me as a teenager because no matter how upset I may get with her i'll always love her and went to give her a hug and kiss. She asked me why my eyelids were moving and I asked her what she meant. She said they were going up and down. I asked her if she meant slowly or fast - she said they moved really fast. It obviously didn't last long - I looked in the car mirror and didn't see anything. Anyway, I looked up on the internet about this and saw that eyelid fluttering is a type of myoclonus known as Myokmia and wondered if it was related to epilepsy??? Does anyone know anything about this or have experienced this sort of thing. I don't usually find wikipedia to be an extremely trustworthy source but I couldn't find a lot on the topic and it does say that Myokmia is the result of random firing of neurons to the muscle fibres and that it's usually brought on by lack of sleep, increased intake of nicotine or caffeine or by stress. So, I am assuming that it's the result of getting so upset but just not sure if it's related to epilepsy.
Sorry for the novel but I thought that giving the full background would help explain things.
Sorry for the novel but I thought that giving the full background would help explain things.