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I think I have two seizures.
sleep seizures/a "usual" one
then a "neutron bomb" one that levels me for two days: vomit, piss, I think I pooped my pants, hours vanish, he said I was ranting a bit, bitchy, two days with my dad babysitting me with this last one two weeks ago now.
two weeks ago! and I still can't get myself back together.
I acknowledge the jet lag thing at least, by the time I "woke up" from this one it was 11pm, which in my head was, like, 9am.
And two weeks later now I can not get less than 12 hours sleep it seems, I am sleeping HARD too. Vivid dreams. (two nights ago a 'psychic' dream too about how Nixon got a bad rap, and the next day I found was the anniversary of the articles of impeachment - weird, very 'vivid')
I'm on phenytoin, citalopram, lamotrigine...
I've been on citalopram now about a several months now. Same with lamotrigine. I've been on the phenytoin since the beginning, 5 years.
but what the heck.
I've had only one other "neutron bomb" one I can think of. And it's interesting because I've really been experiencing a lot of memory/connection between the two: as if the seizure itself is a spy code book for interpreting any recollections during the previous neutron bomb, which I think devolved into a psychotic state. And now after THIS one I've been experiencing like a wormhole-memory capability of progressively recalling additional blips of info relating back to the last one. It seems like talking in code regarding my own experiences that are revelatory to varying degrees.
anyone else experience the massive recovery effect? Weeks, a month of recovery time? After some seizures it's almost like I don't know unless someone tells me, but it varies. And then there's the neutron bomb. Then do nothing for a couple days. And then I can't do anything for weeks except sleep and try to walk around a little, eat, do a crossword, read some. I try to be progressive. For a couple days it's just scary and I stay in and recover but I can feel that fear is not healthy and I try to be progressive and get out, talk with people, interact, I've eaten quite well since then: vitamins, fibers, carbs, proteins... and just eating more overall.
I woke up at 11am and feel like I could just sleep another 8 hours. ...
time for my noon pills...
sleep seizures/a "usual" one
then a "neutron bomb" one that levels me for two days: vomit, piss, I think I pooped my pants, hours vanish, he said I was ranting a bit, bitchy, two days with my dad babysitting me with this last one two weeks ago now.
two weeks ago! and I still can't get myself back together.
I acknowledge the jet lag thing at least, by the time I "woke up" from this one it was 11pm, which in my head was, like, 9am.
And two weeks later now I can not get less than 12 hours sleep it seems, I am sleeping HARD too. Vivid dreams. (two nights ago a 'psychic' dream too about how Nixon got a bad rap, and the next day I found was the anniversary of the articles of impeachment - weird, very 'vivid')
I'm on phenytoin, citalopram, lamotrigine...
I've been on citalopram now about a several months now. Same with lamotrigine. I've been on the phenytoin since the beginning, 5 years.
but what the heck.
I've had only one other "neutron bomb" one I can think of. And it's interesting because I've really been experiencing a lot of memory/connection between the two: as if the seizure itself is a spy code book for interpreting any recollections during the previous neutron bomb, which I think devolved into a psychotic state. And now after THIS one I've been experiencing like a wormhole-memory capability of progressively recalling additional blips of info relating back to the last one. It seems like talking in code regarding my own experiences that are revelatory to varying degrees.
anyone else experience the massive recovery effect? Weeks, a month of recovery time? After some seizures it's almost like I don't know unless someone tells me, but it varies. And then there's the neutron bomb. Then do nothing for a couple days. And then I can't do anything for weeks except sleep and try to walk around a little, eat, do a crossword, read some. I try to be progressive. For a couple days it's just scary and I stay in and recover but I can feel that fear is not healthy and I try to be progressive and get out, talk with people, interact, I've eaten quite well since then: vitamins, fibers, carbs, proteins... and just eating more overall.
I woke up at 11am and feel like I could just sleep another 8 hours. ...
time for my noon pills...