Post surgery and side effects

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I've asked numerous different questions post surgery, so sorry for another!.

One side-effect that I don't realise is how I BLOW things up that have happened, and the EXTREME PARANOIA I now suffer.

I suppose people can argue that's common with a lot of people, but I feel at times it's driving me crazy.
I'm paranoid ALL THE TIME. Everyone's looking at me, What I said to someone, then I reflect what I said, I ponder over it, how I said it, what they'll think of the manner I said it, what it may possibly mean. ALL the different variants imaginable! etc etc etc...
It just carries on and on. I do sometimes realise I'm doing it, sometimes I can't help but be convinced it's reality. My wife does tell me I'm blowing things up a ridiculous amount out of proportion, but I just can't help it. Things constantly circulate through my head.
I cling onto something that happened, and can't stop thinking about it, then I can randomly move onto something else. My brain just doesn't switch off and rest. I sometimes ponder over something before going to sleep, then wake up in the morning with the same thing on my mind, like my brain hadn't turned off through the night. this paranoia is RIDICULOUS.
 

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I know it's due to the brain surgery, but maybe there are techniques a therapist could recommend to help distract you, and get off the paranoia train. Your neuro might be able to recommend a neuropsych to see.
 

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I know for me after my surgery in 2011 i started overthinking things more where it used to get really bad. The overthinking got worse when the seizures returned after the surgery.

I ended up going to see a psychologist in 2015 for both stress and the overthinking. She gave me a lot of different techniques to help me with both my stress and overthinking which have helped.
 

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It's difficult to picture being given therapy for something like paranoia, but I NEED to see my Neurologist as soon as I can do see what's possible.
It's becoming unbearable!
 

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I still want to study up on the Broadmann areas after my own surgery to see what could be giving me my own messed up thinking issues. Here’s a link to the areas:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brodmann_area

I figure it to be like the brain is a library with shelves for the books being the brain cells which are falling apart and need to be removed through surgery while more seizures give books different shelf placements.
As more seizures occur it’s like more shelves get emptied, and shelves get damaged causing more postictal strain, meaning also that more books need to be permanently stored on other “similar category” shelves.
In ways I feel like surgery has positive aspects, that there will be less damage because books get permanently shelved other places, but in ways it’s worse than being inoperable because it means a large area of shelving gets permanently removed.

I dunno - it’s hard to explain and I hope you’re getting what I’m saying - but I say definitely check the Broadmann area definitions because in one sense you might make sense of your surgery areas and their thought orientations - that they might really have to do with those areas! Peace!



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What would you do if you feel paranoia is getting out of hand, and it's taking over every aspect of your life? (which is how I'm beginning to feel)..

The thought EVERYONE is taking about you in a negitive way from when I open my eyes in the morning, to when I close them at night. People whispering with each other, me on the outside looking in, seeing what they're doing through a soundproofing window, but not being able to hear. It's really getting unbearable. My mind won't switch off.
 

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Headphones so you can listen to podcasts or audiobooks and not be distracted by other people and what they may or may not be thinking. And therapy.
 

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Putting physical exercise into my schedule has helped me with such issues over the years, before as well as after the surgery.
 

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I'm suffering from what I think is really bad anxiety. It's literally permanent... It's every second of the day, from waking up in the morning to going to sleep at night. It's relentless. It's taken over my life, I can't function as a person should. Its probably the bad anxiety that's following on and causing me depression as well. It's torture.
The British NHS seems to be in tatters, I can't even see my GP for help.

Luckily I can see my neuropsychologist peivately for help, but really it'll be my GP for help with this.
 

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I'm suffering from what I think is really bad anxiety. It's literally permanent... It's every second of the day, from waking up in the morning to going to sleep at night. It's relentless. It's taken over my life, I can't function as a person should. Its probably the bad anxiety that's following on and causing me depression as well. It's torture.
The British NHS seems to be in tatters, I can't even see my GP for help.

Luckily I can see my neuropsychologist peivately for help, but really it'll be my GP for help with this.
I’m going through something similar but for me my stress levels are sky high at the moment and have been for a while. I think one of the main factors is my work and a couple of other things.
When I spoke to my neuro in April we discussed how maybe it was a good idea if I go back to see a psychologist to help me get my stress levels under control. That may as also help with my seizures which had increased.

Over here you can get a plan from the dr to give you a certain amount of cheaper visits to see specialists like psychologists. I was having issues with my old drs so changed drs a couple of weeks ago. I am in the process of trying to get the plan now, I saw the dr last week. While asking me some questions and getting a bit of my history the dr asked me if I had ever been treated for anxiety. I said nope just seen a psychologist in the past for overthinking and stress but never medicated. The dr agreed that i was stressed but I think she also thought I had a little bit of anxiety.

I have to go back to the dr on Tuesday to get some blood tests results and hopefully pick up the information from the dr to see a psychologist.

I also have a neuropsychologist but she’s in the city (4 hours away) where my neuro is so I only correspond with her via email and try to only contact her of it’s related to my epilepsy.
 
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All I know, I can't bare to carry on with how things are going. Something, ANYTHING needs to be done! Work and what goes on with fellow colleagues and is what causes the biggest mental issues.
 

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All I know, I can't bare to carry on with how things are going. Something, ANYTHING needs to be done! Work and what goes on with fellow colleagues and is what causes the biggest mental issues.
I hope you get the help you need soon.
 

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What I believe to be anxiety, I'll presume a lot of people that suffer from epilepsy, and take anti epileptic medication suffer from, does anyone suffer from it so bad, it at a point how that they avoid any sort of communication (apart from my young lad), to avoid suffering from Anxiety. Things like what was said, how it was said, what was meant, how was what I said perceived, etc etc. Its paranoia that is getting difficult to carry on with. I've spoken of it to my gp, who's directed my towards a organisation that deals with such cases, but to me, it feels like I'm not taken seriously, and just pushed aside for the next patient
 

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Even if your GP doesn't seem to be helpful, go ahead and follow-up with the organization he suggested. Keep being proactive. I hope you find relief soon.
 

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I would recommend speaking to a psychiatrist, not a general practitioner. And yes, therapy will help. Seek out a behavioral health center and make an appointment with a therapist and a psychiatrist.
 
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