first of all - what I usually tell people: you have no idea what epilepsy is like, and you have no idea how the mind works as a solid-state storage mechanism.
There is no way to tell people what it is like. I learned about it as a disease when I was a kid, hearing about it among other common diseases. I was diagnosed in 2008 and just got my SSI medical approval (yay?)
I've been going through a process of extraordinary enlightenment lately which I attribute to some clever ER doctors, or some doctors, who knew about this solid-state brain memory engineering though.
The brain is built one thought at a time along an electric pendulum of pulse which we call "thought". What is left behind as thoughts progress and the brain grows is this solid-state storage.
Epilepsy isn't about just "shaking" - but it is about having the mind "hacked". The brain gets hacked through a cleavage that can have an uncertain path through the solid-state storage of what we have done.
Seizures involve motion often, because we move so often throughout life (especially walking to the bus - lol). Unfortunately seizing isn't just a walking motion, but an Every motion at the Same Time. Any kind of gastric or lung motion (why my lungs hack out so much crap after - they get "wrung out") or bodily motion can get activated as the seizure chemistry clatters through the brain.
They may find it easy to consider computer code and how it is like the brain in relation to seizures. As an old school BASIC familiar guy I remember "GOTO" as a common program. I remember how funny it seemed to do a circular program ("start, add 10, goto start" kind of thing) or funny when old Atari 2600 games would get jammed up (that Tanks game seemed particularly bad).
Seizures are like this in a way. The brain can get hacked and a seizure is a bit as though going through a program, and picking out random program bits and only using them to run the program.
It would be nonsense and probably look funny/scary.
Anyway, one time at the ER trip I was through clusters like crazy shit after massive sleep TCs.
I've come to the understanding that actually someone TAUGHT me this s**t while I was psychotic (psychotic seizure: akin to when an HTML program misses an end-parenthesis and the page ends up %sense vs. %garble and the person's reality is like this)
and that is all of this information I've been slowly wringing out through my consciousness.
I never had a sense of seizures like this before, and I think a doctor knew of the solid-state brain architecture and wanted to fill me with some brilliant info. So what they did is tell me all of this stuff while I was psychotic, and got it literally stuck in my head. Thoughts get threaded -along- the electrochemical building blocks that build up the brain.
Just aside of our thoughts is actually *nothing* but the halo which is the power of our minds' ability to sustain the line of thinking.
We feel 'weird' around seizures because they are like a lightning bolt penetrating the library of consciousness such that the brain feels whatever word is just beside each word in each book burned by the lightning bolt. Ever read or seen a half-burned book?
That might be a good visual aid even - bring in a half-burned book and have them read it aloud - it should sound pretty "psychotic". Maybe they could act it out also to humiliate them into accepting your tutelage - lol.
think about this - we already have some methods of removing memories from the brain - lobotomy is one. The matter itself does not contain memory. Rather, matter is what allows the CONDUCTANCE of memories AROUND the substance. Conductance loves iron - a reason why we need to eat iron and other metals (and because they bond to oxygen well). The brain has a lot of metal in it and makes the head very heavy (40-50lbs. or something). The brain is not able to conduct through areas where matter is gone. (A good reason why entire memories need to be removed during a lobotomy, otherwise you could live in auras forever.)
Conductance is moved by waves. During the seizures the conductance of the brain is altered by increasing these waves either chemically or through heat or through motion... Therefore the direct connections through the brain aren't accessible - just as sliding a ring down a horizontal rope is altered as the wavelength is changed.
Tie a string to a door handle, maybe 6 feet of string, and thread a bolt or washer on it. Have the bolt in the middle and just by waving the horizontal string try to move the washer both back and forth. Maybe a rubber band would work better than a bolt.
In this same way our minds wavelengths are altered by the weights of or minds. And keep in mind the brain is doing this with something like, for a supposed guess, 1,000,000 "strings" at a time.
Does material make our being? or does being make our material? It's the oldest philosophical question there is. In that regard epileptics have the front row seat to that question - s**t front row, we're the only ones EXPERIENCING the question on a part of that field.
I've been experiencing deep religious resonances over the past year, and not quite just for tenets to living because religious icons and figures were/are blessed, but because they had epilepsy.
Have a psychotic seizure and you will never look at the iconography on Angkor Wat the same again (
http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Angkor_wat). I don't think it was a place of sanctity as much as a place for "insanity" - i.e. an asylum where psychics had a temple/psychiatric hospital built.
Jesus died and came back to life? Sure it wasn't a seizure? Same with a lot of biblical events I say. I'm not saying there's no God - I'm saying knowing God is enriched by knowing more about the mind, and that by having a seizure I think we're basically looking deeper and deeper into God.
Anyway.
I've come to a consideration there are studies regarding the memory/conductance issue, and that I've been a proof positive. And how do I know? Because I've had throughout my brain since the time I was at the ER this clutter of thought-matter which has been spreading like a tablecloth on slick tabletop throughout my brain, about all of this scientific stuff which has been resonant, and perfecting in my understanding of epilepsy.
I was at a Texas state student hospital and I'm coming to think and seem to realize (though I don't really remember much at all of that timespan) that I may have been a clinical study regarding this solid-state brain memory topic.
Memories are stored alongside and 'between' conductance. I imagine the Mickey Rourke X-Men character Electro(?) who had those electric whips. We exist as rope jumpers double-Dutch-ing between ropes of conductance like these (I'm thinking of this as in just the visual effect sense - conductance itself is between matter and not made of actual physical whips like in X-Men). Depending on the chemical polarity there may actually be many many of such ropes. But instead of being bound to "Electro" our ropes are gravitationally tied to our brain's mass itself.
What I'm thinking I've been given is something equivalent to an e-book to hear while I'm double-Dutching. And that the only way technologically (so-far) to access the "double-Dutcher" is to have them be experiencing psychosis.
While we "double-Dutch", we as humans are actually running forward in living. While seizing we lose consciousness amid the Electro whips and just slump there and get more and more dazed by them, depending on where they're hitting our body. During psychotic seizures we are still hop-running, but at the wrong speed - so we are still "active" but totally stunned and out of synch, but at least it seems there is an ability to have an e-book slipped in during that active period. And anything else going on during that period apparently gets locked in there too. This isn't an immediate download, because all of that data gets pretty strewn throughout a totally different bitrate... think of the first breakdown of the data in the movie "Contact", when the "background noise" within the Hitler thing actually held the pertinent info... ala a "different bitrate".
Psychotics aren't idiots - hardly. It's that people around them are idiotic and scared of the way psychotic seizures behave, and that the crazy voices inside of the head are what goes on TO an epileptic DURING previous seizures, and that information is what thence forth is resonant in the mind. The psychotic seizure proves what a solid-state unit the brain is. Humans are nothing more than an external storage device being dragged behind an Electro double-Dutcher wherein the Electro is nothing more than just the conductance of ourselves around and around our own conductance held together by gravity at a point we call reality, where the conductance itself is created.
I'd email you the pages and pages of journaling I've done regarding this over the past few weeks (after I think I had the "same seizure" which means the info has been absorbed to a maximum I'm guessing) but it's a little long and probably too personal.