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Hello, glad I found this site. Anyway I had my VNS implanted on 9/24/2014. After the “healing period” ended my neurologist turned the VNS to the 2nd lowest setting. So I figured, well that ought to do the trick. As it turns out, when the device “stimulates” I almost lost my entire ability to talk. So naturally this freaked me out. I went back and had the device dropped to the lowest setting. At the lowest setting I still stay pretty hoarse. My doctor also adjusted my medication doses when she lowered the VNS. My girlfriend and my family have told me that they’ve noticed I do not partake in conversations nearly as much as I used to. I can’t carry on a decent conversation without feeling choked every few minutes.
I live alone (yet close to family), and they told me they hadn’t noticed any seizures (they aren’t around me 24hrs a day). I figured, well the thing must be working then. I told my neurologist this as well, and she said “that’s wonderful, I’m so happy. Things are starting to look good for you”. Then a couple of days ago I missed my morning, dose of medication (2 750mgs of Keppra, and 2 100mg of Lamictal). That wasn’t on purpose. It was an unavoidable accident. Well later that afternoon I had a pretty bad seizure while setting next to my girlfriend on the couch. Normally I’m only able to feel pre-seizure auras, but this hit me hard. I didn’t know where I was for a good 5 or so minutes. When I came to, my girlfriend told me what happened, and despite my condition it still surprised me. I sat there for about 30 minutes in disbelief.
So I came to what I figure is a logical conclusion that this VNS isn’t working for me at all. That I’ve been enduring these awful side effects for the past nine or so months for no good reason, and that I may face long term damage to something, like my vocal cords or vagus nerve. I also have a constant burning sensation just above the VNS. Almost like a lighter is being held up to my chest. I haven’t found a good explanation for that yet either. So I’m pretty sure I don’t want this thing anymore. I can’t have it turned higher than its lowest setting anyway without almost completely losing to ability to speak.
However I do not see my neurologist again until the end of next month. I’m sure she’s going to try and assure me that having it removed is a mistake. So we may end up in a friendly argument over the situation. Anyway, I’d like to hear some advice on how to handle this matter. There seems to be a lot of shady and devious things/actions surrounding this device. I’m sure she’s well aware of that too, and may be persuaded by outside sources to encourage the continued use of it. I thought it was working, and was putting up with a diluted voice because of that. But then I missed my meds I started seizing noticeably (to me). The device didn’t do its job, and makes other aspects of my life worse. So how should I handle/approach my neurologist on this matter? She’s been very nice to me in general, but I think it’s obvious that this thing needs to go. She’s mostly likely to disagree.
I live alone (yet close to family), and they told me they hadn’t noticed any seizures (they aren’t around me 24hrs a day). I figured, well the thing must be working then. I told my neurologist this as well, and she said “that’s wonderful, I’m so happy. Things are starting to look good for you”. Then a couple of days ago I missed my morning, dose of medication (2 750mgs of Keppra, and 2 100mg of Lamictal). That wasn’t on purpose. It was an unavoidable accident. Well later that afternoon I had a pretty bad seizure while setting next to my girlfriend on the couch. Normally I’m only able to feel pre-seizure auras, but this hit me hard. I didn’t know where I was for a good 5 or so minutes. When I came to, my girlfriend told me what happened, and despite my condition it still surprised me. I sat there for about 30 minutes in disbelief.
So I came to what I figure is a logical conclusion that this VNS isn’t working for me at all. That I’ve been enduring these awful side effects for the past nine or so months for no good reason, and that I may face long term damage to something, like my vocal cords or vagus nerve. I also have a constant burning sensation just above the VNS. Almost like a lighter is being held up to my chest. I haven’t found a good explanation for that yet either. So I’m pretty sure I don’t want this thing anymore. I can’t have it turned higher than its lowest setting anyway without almost completely losing to ability to speak.
However I do not see my neurologist again until the end of next month. I’m sure she’s going to try and assure me that having it removed is a mistake. So we may end up in a friendly argument over the situation. Anyway, I’d like to hear some advice on how to handle this matter. There seems to be a lot of shady and devious things/actions surrounding this device. I’m sure she’s well aware of that too, and may be persuaded by outside sources to encourage the continued use of it. I thought it was working, and was putting up with a diluted voice because of that. But then I missed my meds I started seizing noticeably (to me). The device didn’t do its job, and makes other aspects of my life worse. So how should I handle/approach my neurologist on this matter? She’s been very nice to me in general, but I think it’s obvious that this thing needs to go. She’s mostly likely to disagree.