Lol....
Court, when you sing that I imagine you with a bow glued to the top of you head. It'd go great with your sheep-punting shoes. I'd say it'd go great with the kilt but a few million scotsman would hop over the pond and yell at me.
I thought I had this sleep thing beat. Turns out the insomnia is the IIH (the high fluid pressure in my head), not the lamictal. I was so great for about a few days after they lowered the pressure. I slept like a baby. Now it's back up, and yep, here I am back in the midnight club.
My dog just got up and went into the closet to sleep again. Apparently I move around too much. And the light on doesn't help either.
I have too much time to think at night. And then I start getting scared about my situation, which isn't good for morale. If I let the boogie man get to me, the meds won't work on the IIH and I'll have to have brain surgery, the seizures aren't caused by the IIH and I'll be on AEDs forever, and my brain will shrivel up due to the large number of meds I'm on. The seizure meds were bad enough, but add in all the ones I'm taking for IIH and it is ridiculous. One thing I am deeply grateful for is insurance. I will never take that for granted. I'm scared about when my COBRA runs out.
I didn't mean to whine. I have great things in my life - good family, great friends, my dog, financially getting by, and for the most part, still enjoying my life. Just in a different way. And believe it or not, I'm grateful for my disorders escallating the last few years. It has made me a more compassionate person with a lot more insight into what it is like to be ill and to struggle through it. Now, could we call it "lesson learned?" If disorder/illness would just stop that would be great.
Oh, man. While I've been writing this the dog has been busy. He has been digging undergarments and socks out of the laundry basket and hiding them under the bed. Back and forth, back and forth. Where on earth did his little doggie brain get the idea to do that?
I'm rambling. Can someone please just read me a really boring book and put me to sleep? Maybe I'll watch a TiVo of "Masterpiece Theater." Sometimes it has the same effect on me.
Court, Lou, Matchu, Em, Rae, Literophile, Sheri, Aubry, Meetz... Anybody out there?