The midnight club

[Loopy Lou]

2.20am. Still angry from last night, been kind of listless all day, now watching season 7 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Halfway through disc two now. Got my epilepsy review with the doc tomorrow, my future at work hangs on whether he decides if I'm safe or not. Another thing to worry about.

 

[matchu]

oh, I hope you can de stress before your interview. Sending thoughts

 

[Loopy Lou]

Thanks Matchu. I know that if things go right and he decides that I'm fully capable of doing my job, then I might be in line for a small promotion. Mind you, I'm a bit dubious because even if I did get it, it would mean going to full time work again. More money though. Hmmm I guess ill just wait and see what he says. Haven't had any tc for ages then had one in sleep last week and cracked my fingers as well as the usual chewed up cheek. Still bruised now. Also still having partial but maybe the Vimpat will help with that.

 

[Endless]

Lou,

Oh, darn it anyway. The relapse stinks. The cracked fingers really really stink. I'm so sorry.

But, the upcoming review is good news. Good luck. I'm sending positive energy your way. Will you let us know how it comes out?

 

[Loopy Lou]

Yup I certainly will. Onto episode 9 of Buffy now. Maybe try for sleep after this disc, got to be up in about 4 hours. Busy day tomorrow, up early for docs and then the gym, and then shopping to get. Nighty night! X

 

[Aubrey]

Yes, good luck Lou.

I know it is only a little after midnight, but where I am, it is technically after midnight.

Court, I am going to have nightmares when I finally do go to bed - about weird bear-things with contorted mouths dancing around in barns!

I am trying not to do my homework. I just can't think. I don't want to pretend I am an attorney at an insurance company and write a short memo.

I wish this were not a full-time only program.

I know I am a big whiner.

 

[Meetz1064]

Good luck

to you, Lou. Here's hoping you do well, your fingers are better, and you get that promotion!

 

[Endless]

Hello, all.

Another night of 2 hours of sleep. I've been up since 2, and once i'm up, I'm up. I'm tempted to take something to help me sleep, but I know it won't work and then I'll just be wiped out all day tomorrow. Anybody in here take something for sleep? What is it? I'm wondering if I had a seizure in my sleep because I feel terrible - actually, I have an aura. It woke me up. Which means I still have something coming. Ick.

Hey, Court. Just for the record, I googled "sheep punting." It seems you are the only human in the universe that has that hobby. Well done!

Dancing grinning/grimicing bears... now it is in my head and I can't get it out! Well, there are much worse things, lol..... Hey, I found a pole dancing bear:

 

[matchu]

i take some serequel and a lorazepam

 

[C0urt]

watching glee on hulu at 4am,
deleting a weeks worth of writing, and redoing it.

 

[Meetz1064]

Arggg

It's 5:30 in the morning, and one of the 4 cats has peed all over the place in the bathroom, and one of the 5 aminals ( ) has done another mess in the hallway.

WHY are there aminals in this house? *grumbling* They're NOT MINE.

I suppose I ought to get my lazy self moving, and dressed for work now. I've only been up for 3 hours now.........

Pole dancing bears? Hmmmmmmm, that thought is going to entertain me alllllll day, LOLOL.

Love it! :bigsmile:

Off I go to the kiddos, and TONS of errands!

 

[Endless]

Doing my nails.... dog keeps getting in the way and noodles around to get petted. I'm screwing the polish. Girls, you know what I mean? (Guys, maybe you know, too!)

Lou, how did the medical review go? How are U feeling?

Matchu, I haven't tried serequel. Maybe that'd work for me.

 

[Loopy Lou]

Well, the doc asked how I'd hurt my hand so I told him that I'd had a nocturnal sz the week before. We talked about my work and about my boss going to request another letter for my risk assessment so that my job can be nearly the same as before. The doc knows that this is something really important to me and about the amount of stress I'm getting at work lately, but I'm worried that because I told him about the seizure that he may not allow me to do the things I need to do. I guess I'll have to wait and see what happens after all the forms etc from work have been submitted.

My manager has now asked me/encouraged me to go for this promotion 3 times. As far as I know there is no-one else from within the company applying for it but it will be a lot of extra work and stress.

Anyway, it could be weeks before I find out =\ the Vimpat is not working as well as I'd like and the doc said that the neuro had given him permission and instructions for adding a third med if required. I strongly declined.

 

[Nakamova]

Hey Lou --

Do you have any "de-stressing" activities in place incase you get the promotion? It could be as simple as 5 minutes of meditation twice a day. Or dancing to your favorite song before heading to work (or at work -- if that's appropriate)...

 

[Loopy Lou]

At the moment when I'm stressed I just like time to myself in my room, either relaxing and doing nothing or listening to music, watching a dvd etc. I also like to go to the gym when I can. Had the worst day at work yesterday. One of my clients had a five hour long tantrum which left me, the other member of staff and the 3 other people in the house with bruises, scratches etc. It got so bad that I had to take all the knives out of the kitchen, hide them and call the police on this person. I'd already been having partials all day, and I had a thumping headache to add to that too. Took me ages to "wind down" enough to sleep.

Mind you, if I do get it - or indeed, if I decide I want to go for promotion - I may be too busy with paperwork stuff rather than the physical side of things.

Anyhoo its now 1am and I think I'd better head to bed. Honestly, yesterday I had all the violence to deal with, and tonight it was illness because one of the clients was vomiting. Over my new shirt. Yay.

 

[Nakamova]

Oy! Sleep well, and have better day tomorrow!

 

[Endless]

Lou,

That tantrum sounds horrifying. Were you scared? I would be. I don't think I could do your job. At all. :adore:

The promotion sounds like a pretty good thing, even if it is stressful. Less physical stuff, more paperwork might accomodate your seizures better. And it's more money, right? And how much more stressful could it be than knife-wielding, tantrum-throwing, projectile-vomiting clients?

You are one tough lady, Lou. Bless you for doing that job.

 

[C0urt]

started watching nurse jackie,
and putting off doing some math and writing.

 

[Loopy Lou]

Lou,

That tantrum sounds horrifying. Were you scared? I would be. I don't think I could do your job. At all. :adore:

Yup, i was, but i'll be damned if i was going to show her that! It was only really when i got home that i thought "oh my god!" and started the shaking and stuff. I suppose in the heat of the moment that you just do what you have to. The worst thing is that this was the only person in the house who actually doesn't have learning disabilities and she knew exactly what she was doing. For example she went for the other member of staff and the other clients because they were either smaller than her or couldn't hit back. She only went for me a few times before realising that she physically couldn't shove me or move me, though the attempts left me with a fair bit of bruising. I felt like a bodyguard for four other people! She smashed plates, threw knifes, tipped one guy's dinner and his cup of (hot) tea all over him, kicked and punched at doors, trashed the place, tried to throw the mirror in the hall at the autistic girl who lives there.

And oh god, all the paperwork. So yeah i didn't sleep too well. Oh well, one more day of work and then i have the weekend off (phew!)

 

[Nakamova]

Boy do you deserve a nice, relaxing weekend!