The kaleidoscopic lights?
If I have a mild "hit" - I will only see: Turquoise,Blue, Indigo, Green and White. In those range. They are pure. No zig zags, streaks, but they spiral counter-clockwise motion about 98% of the time and I'm asleep.
(My Neurologists / Epileptologists knew about it; and I've had them since I was a child, I don't get them much anymore partially because I'm on medication. I was untreated when I was a child and teenager, but they still do come once in a blue moon just like a Tonic Clonic (Grand Mal).)
If I have a HARD HIT - which means a nightmare from hell - RED and Orange comes into picture and it becomes HIDEOUS! And in this case thing goes clockwise instead of the usual manner.
Always would wake up drenched in sweat, and having peed on myself, half off and half
on my bed or in weird positions: like all tangled up with the bedcovers, head and arms on floor while legs on bed, or head, arm and leg on floor while remainder on bed; sometimes I would throw up, sometimes I wouldn't. It would be downright embarrassing when I would get out of this. I would have to tear my bed apart, take a bath, and wash everything.
When I was younger, my parents used to have to put plastic everywhere - on the floor, on the bed, everywhere to protect everything. Even when I was married; my ex couldn't understand this, hence why he said I was a "psychiatric" cuckoo.
This did not happen all the time. There was no way of knowing when it would strike, there were no triggers. But once I was put on Dilantin, it did the trick.
But that was when the battle of the Neuros came to being - the other Neuro said I didn't
need Dilantin and took me off, and I was slammed with this; I wanted my Dilantin back. I didn't know there was a connection or tie between the Grand Mal (Tonic Clonic) and the kaleidoscopic lights, and a lot of other things. I didn't understand all of these things.
So it was a very difficult question when a Neurologist asked me what I experienced that
was "abnormal"? To me - everything was "normal". I never knew anything abnormal; I didn't know anything that was normal. So therefore, I could not answer their questions. I thought everyone had it; because their questions they asked me were so vague and not specific.