Tonight is a big night in my life. Tomorrow I see the Neurologist to get the results of the tests. It could mean major changes to my life. I am a single, self-employed trainer - I travel every day to different companies to train in their premises. If I cannot drive, my whole life will change. I have no other income, there is no welfare here for the self-employed, and I will have to figure out a completely new way of living.
Tonight I am remembering all those other big, momentous nights in my life, those times when I knew that life was going to change dramatically. The night I sat with my brothers and sisters by my father's bedside as his life drew towards a close - that was a night that will live with me forever! Life without the best father that this life could give to anyone - that is what we all faced that night. I am thinking about the night my son was born - the waiting for this new life that I had longed for and that would mean so much to my future. And the night this son had his own little baby. He phoned me 10 minutes after the baby was born and said - 'I get it Mam, I know now what you were feeling!'
I remember the night that I was going to have to find the strength to get my alcoholic husband out of my house - or none of us were going to survive! Where was I going to get the strength? I was a housewife who had never worked - how was I going to survive? How would me and my children feed ourselves?
Well - I got the strength! And I went out there and made a good living. My son is a successful animator, my daughter is off doing her Phd and I have 2 lovely granddaughters.
I will get the strength again - whatever happens tomorrow.
Tonight I am remembering all those other big, momentous nights in my life, those times when I knew that life was going to change dramatically. The night I sat with my brothers and sisters by my father's bedside as his life drew towards a close - that was a night that will live with me forever! Life without the best father that this life could give to anyone - that is what we all faced that night. I am thinking about the night my son was born - the waiting for this new life that I had longed for and that would mean so much to my future. And the night this son had his own little baby. He phoned me 10 minutes after the baby was born and said - 'I get it Mam, I know now what you were feeling!'
I remember the night that I was going to have to find the strength to get my alcoholic husband out of my house - or none of us were going to survive! Where was I going to get the strength? I was a housewife who had never worked - how was I going to survive? How would me and my children feed ourselves?
Well - I got the strength! And I went out there and made a good living. My son is a successful animator, my daughter is off doing her Phd and I have 2 lovely granddaughters.
I will get the strength again - whatever happens tomorrow.