Be Loud Be Proud!!!
Hi Ashmstng
I'm sorry to hear you are still struggling with how you feel about your appearance, I guess I'm getting on really well with how I look and feel, because it's my second surgery, and I knew what to expect, looking back at photos of after my first op, my swelling and bruising this time, is in exactly the same place, which I guess makes sense, as the surgeon went in through the original scar, if God forbid there is a next time, it's a zipper for me!!
Try doing what I do when I walk into a crowded bar, I hold my head up high, and I just feel so proud and privileged to have been able to have this brain surgery when so many people can't see any light at the end of their tunnels, I can now and I have been 100 times better seizure wise since my op, just over three weeks ago. I can fully understand what you mean though, a woman's hair is her crowning glory right? I know that if my hair isn't right, then it doesn't matter what else does, or what I'm wearing, or what my perfume is like, I must tell you what I've done differently this time too. You can't see my scar, because I have brought three lovely elasticated sort of hairbands, I can't bear my ears to be on show, so the bands hold my right ear down, and cover the scar, plus they look really nice, I got a grey one, a brown one, and one that is like animal print, I don't feel quite so conscious when I'm wearing one.
I know you said that you had surgery on your left side, but just remind me when it was, and how successful it has been, have you been ok since? I'm still having the odd aura, I've had two very small Complex Partial Seizures since getting home, and that is it! That for me, is a result! I see the surgeon on August 20th for a follow up consultation, and I so so hope that I'm still doing well when I get down to London, because I am going to shake that guy's hand, he is simply amazing, and if this keeps up, and I can get driving again, and get a decent job, I will owe him so much. Ihope all is well with you? Sorry if I've repeated myself anywhere here, my memory is still as bad, but please drop me a line when you get the chance, we so must stick together all the guys on this wonderful website!
I look forward to hearing from you Ash, hold your head up mate, we are special people, and deserve to be proud of who we are, and what we are!
Take Care & Best Wishes
Loadsalove
Elaine x