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What a thread! This cuts deep for me. I just cover it up and try not to think about all I've lost. I have almost no childhood memories, none of my children's births or their childhoods or even what they looked like at babies. It is all just gone. It is a good thing everyone else is sleeping in because I am crying, it hurts so much. Like you guys, I fake it too. I ask people to spell their names to cover not remembering them and make generic comments when the family "remembers", but it is all just gone for me and I don't want them to know. I feel like I hve only the present and no past at all. God this hurts. On a lighter note that is frustrating but not painful (and is what I ment to write before I got started) is my word-finding problem. My family loves to laugh when I confuse words, like telling my daughter to put her socks in the toilet instead of the hamper or of needing to describe something because I can't find the right word, like asking someone to bring me that white stuff you put on cereal (milk). I have learning disabilities and always put that part of this memory stuff off on that. And you can see that is really humerous sometimes, too. Recently I've found another frustration, though. I print instead of cursive writing (another LD thing) and when I have to write a check and have to write out the words (two dollars and fourty five cents) I can't remember how to form the cursive letters. I know what they should look like but I have to actually and carefully think my way through every movement of the pen to make my hand draw the letter. It just dosen't come naturally like it used to. Am I going bonkers? :loco: OK, guys. I'm off the crying past memory loss thing. Tears gone, at least for now. I guess if you have to live in the present only, you might as well have some fun. Fun in the past isn't near as much fun as fun in the present, right? I may not have a past but I have a present and a future and it is almost Christmas and Santa's on his way. Got to get busy! Happy Christmas, guys. Thanks for your friendship.:xmas: