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For starters- I'm new to this site- I figured a forum/site, with actual people knowledgeable of most aspects, and variables amongst epilepsy.
My name is Cynthia; I'm nineteen, a female, and I believe that this morning I experienced my very first seizure..
Epilepsy runs through out my mother's side, and my mother her self has had quite a history with them. What bothers me, is that her episodes began right before she hit twenty; and I don't need this on top of *Lupus, and *MCTD.
:;This morning I had gotten out of bed to pee around 7/8am.. However- I hadn't been sleeping within the few hours before my fit.
:;When I was done, as I stood up, right then, I knew I needed to take it easy. It had almost felt as if I had gotten up too quick.. I've had moments before where upon standing up, quickly- or NOT, my vision blackens and fades in and out.
This time was no different for the first three seconds, but wasn't dissipating. It lingered, and it was so indescribable. The weirdest experience, the weirdest WHOLE BODY SENSATION that I've ever endured. My body felt like it was in a haze, like a warm something surging under my skin, as it continued, the feeling of tingling everywhere AND the feeling of weakness/fainting became almost gradually consuming, almost like a wave of knowing something was about to happen, and I just tried to concentrate and pull out of it. As my whole body, toes to hair follicles- felt like a tingling/warm/dark engulfing feeling, something that made me anticipate worse.. zoning almost out, but knowing that if I did, It wasn't going to be good. (I know this sounds crazy)
I kept telling myself that I needed to calm down, and brace myself not to loose consciousness. I took about four staggering steps into the living room where my walking landed me into a wall, which I clung to before my legs were hit with a weakness. I couldn't keep straight- and my legs started to buckle almost, and the more I tried to control my trembling, the more intense the jerking got.. when I lost control of my legs wobbling, it then hit my arms and the same thing happened. At that point- I was fighting to focus on ONLY not blacking out. I suddenly fell to the ground- and can vividly recall every single second of the attack. Once I was on the floor- my eyes were open, my hearing turned into dead/muffled silence- and nothing else, dipping in and out.
My body felt lifeless, except for feeling my whole body jerking with out being able to talk, move, or do ANYTHING BUT watch and fight the overwhelming "about to black-out feeling". Finally it stopped, and I just laid there. Shortly after getting up and just zoning out, going over every detail, recalling every movement, jerking, uncontrollable, and like I said, practically *Impossible for me to Describe*.
Even though I was totally mentally and visually aware- I couldn't control my body after I fell. Not a single muscle- I don't even think I blinked. It was like I was watching everything around me, and calmly- (I don't know why, I knew I had to hold on until whatever this was ended during the dreamlike-third party- physical state.)
It still has me somewhat distant.. almost 24 hours later. I can't shake this feeling that something bad is A. about to happen, or B. something isn't right.
I have an appoint. tomorrow.
I know my thoughts are scattered- or at least feel like they are- but PLEASE*
Has any one ever experienced -ANYTHING- even slightly resembling what I tried to describe?
I wish I could find the right term for all of the overwhelming sensations- and the feeling of mentally being there, but physically gone/non-existent.
The blackening sight and the deafening-like dead silence were some of the strongest sensations.
Please- anyone- this came out of no where.
My name is Cynthia; I'm nineteen, a female, and I believe that this morning I experienced my very first seizure..
Epilepsy runs through out my mother's side, and my mother her self has had quite a history with them. What bothers me, is that her episodes began right before she hit twenty; and I don't need this on top of *Lupus, and *MCTD.
:;This morning I had gotten out of bed to pee around 7/8am.. However- I hadn't been sleeping within the few hours before my fit.
:;When I was done, as I stood up, right then, I knew I needed to take it easy. It had almost felt as if I had gotten up too quick.. I've had moments before where upon standing up, quickly- or NOT, my vision blackens and fades in and out.
This time was no different for the first three seconds, but wasn't dissipating. It lingered, and it was so indescribable. The weirdest experience, the weirdest WHOLE BODY SENSATION that I've ever endured. My body felt like it was in a haze, like a warm something surging under my skin, as it continued, the feeling of tingling everywhere AND the feeling of weakness/fainting became almost gradually consuming, almost like a wave of knowing something was about to happen, and I just tried to concentrate and pull out of it. As my whole body, toes to hair follicles- felt like a tingling/warm/dark engulfing feeling, something that made me anticipate worse.. zoning almost out, but knowing that if I did, It wasn't going to be good. (I know this sounds crazy)
I kept telling myself that I needed to calm down, and brace myself not to loose consciousness. I took about four staggering steps into the living room where my walking landed me into a wall, which I clung to before my legs were hit with a weakness. I couldn't keep straight- and my legs started to buckle almost, and the more I tried to control my trembling, the more intense the jerking got.. when I lost control of my legs wobbling, it then hit my arms and the same thing happened. At that point- I was fighting to focus on ONLY not blacking out. I suddenly fell to the ground- and can vividly recall every single second of the attack. Once I was on the floor- my eyes were open, my hearing turned into dead/muffled silence- and nothing else, dipping in and out.
My body felt lifeless, except for feeling my whole body jerking with out being able to talk, move, or do ANYTHING BUT watch and fight the overwhelming "about to black-out feeling". Finally it stopped, and I just laid there. Shortly after getting up and just zoning out, going over every detail, recalling every movement, jerking, uncontrollable, and like I said, practically *Impossible for me to Describe*.
Even though I was totally mentally and visually aware- I couldn't control my body after I fell. Not a single muscle- I don't even think I blinked. It was like I was watching everything around me, and calmly- (I don't know why, I knew I had to hold on until whatever this was ended during the dreamlike-third party- physical state.)
It still has me somewhat distant.. almost 24 hours later. I can't shake this feeling that something bad is A. about to happen, or B. something isn't right.
I have an appoint. tomorrow.
I know my thoughts are scattered- or at least feel like they are- but PLEASE*
Has any one ever experienced -ANYTHING- even slightly resembling what I tried to describe?
I wish I could find the right term for all of the overwhelming sensations- and the feeling of mentally being there, but physically gone/non-existent.
The blackening sight and the deafening-like dead silence were some of the strongest sensations.
Please- anyone- this came out of no where.
