Matthew74
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I haven't been here for a long time, but as some of you know I'm going to school to learn band instrument repair. Overall it has gone well. It's a one year course divided into quarters: Brass I, Woodwinds I, Brass II, and Woodwinds II. Brass I went great and I loved it, the instructor couldn't have been better, but I'm in Woodwinds I right now.
The reason I wanted to come to school was specifically woodwinds, but the woodwind instructor's style doesn't suit me at all, so I'm getting very frustrated. It's not just the classwork. I need to do really well to get a good reference, so that I can get a good job. Getting a job was the whole point of coming here. And, of course it's just a drag when you're not learning as much as you should be.
Basically, I'm in my 9th year of college (I have two degrees), and I'm 40 years old, so I know myself, how I learn, and how I don't. I also know from my neuropsychologist that I have information processing difficulties, which among other things means that I have a hard time with "puzzles" and "brain games".
Unfortunately, all the teacher wants to do in class is "puzzles" and "brain games". For every ten minutes he says something helpful, he spends an hour or more asking questions no one wants to answer. I can't follow it and can't answer the questions. It's a royal pain, boring, frustrating, I don't learn much, and have to sit there for hours listening. If he'd just let us work on our horns everything would be fine, but instead I'm wasting all this time. I don't think any of the other students like it, and they don't seem to be getting much out of it either.
What frustrates me the most about it is that I know I have a brain tumor and I'm going to have to suffer through the whole thing, just like I did in high school math. This morning we had "lecture" from 7:30 AM to 11:00 AM. I'm tired, don't feel good, frustrated, bored, my back injury hurts, and I'm feeling bad about myself.
I can't explain about my epilepsy (I have been there and done that), and can't do anything about "accomodations" (he's not going to change the class anyhow). I can't "tune-out".
Any other ideas on how to deal with the stress of being in a similar situtation? I don't know how not to get upset, especially when it goes on so long. I could handle an hour, but 3 1/2 hours is simply too long, especially when I had to get up before dawn.
The reason I wanted to come to school was specifically woodwinds, but the woodwind instructor's style doesn't suit me at all, so I'm getting very frustrated. It's not just the classwork. I need to do really well to get a good reference, so that I can get a good job. Getting a job was the whole point of coming here. And, of course it's just a drag when you're not learning as much as you should be.
Basically, I'm in my 9th year of college (I have two degrees), and I'm 40 years old, so I know myself, how I learn, and how I don't. I also know from my neuropsychologist that I have information processing difficulties, which among other things means that I have a hard time with "puzzles" and "brain games".
Unfortunately, all the teacher wants to do in class is "puzzles" and "brain games". For every ten minutes he says something helpful, he spends an hour or more asking questions no one wants to answer. I can't follow it and can't answer the questions. It's a royal pain, boring, frustrating, I don't learn much, and have to sit there for hours listening. If he'd just let us work on our horns everything would be fine, but instead I'm wasting all this time. I don't think any of the other students like it, and they don't seem to be getting much out of it either.
What frustrates me the most about it is that I know I have a brain tumor and I'm going to have to suffer through the whole thing, just like I did in high school math. This morning we had "lecture" from 7:30 AM to 11:00 AM. I'm tired, don't feel good, frustrated, bored, my back injury hurts, and I'm feeling bad about myself.
I can't explain about my epilepsy (I have been there and done that), and can't do anything about "accomodations" (he's not going to change the class anyhow). I can't "tune-out".
Any other ideas on how to deal with the stress of being in a similar situtation? I don't know how not to get upset, especially when it goes on so long. I could handle an hour, but 3 1/2 hours is simply too long, especially when I had to get up before dawn.