Okay, so I tried to post an update like 40 times, but each time I logged in, i had to go do something else, or someone called etc etc.
So yes, I went. not under my own free will though. Yes you were right. Chad dragged me kicking and screaming to the hospital. Turns out that I was puking blood, red eyes, tummy cramps, and burning skin were all from my meds. my serum levels jump around alot. its like my body decides to absorb it all normally one week, then the next week it super absorbs, and the the next it under absorbs. They are now going to figure out why that is.
I know i miss my doses at the proper times alot, and on occasion missed all together. I have also taken my morning dose twice by accident when I couldnt remember if I already took it. They seem to think that its something my body does naturally. like it normally selectively absorbs things. including vitamins and minerals. I have been told so many times that my iron levels are low and that i should do "yada yada" to fix it. but I never did, and when I go get it checked again, it seems to be fine.
So the meds have a "drying" effect on me. like my eyes dried out which caused the redness, my skin was dry, so it burned like hell *I have never had dry skin, and this was not flaky or anything. just felt like sunburn, tight and burny* and the tummy ache was from swallowing blood.
It turns out that it also dries out the inside of my nasal cavity, so that's why I got those random nose bleeds *still not sure why the complez partial followed* so it also dried it out at the top of the nose so it wasnt something that a kleenex easily stopped. when I was sleeping, it would bleed and I would just swallow it. blood in my tummy upset it and that made me yucky. then when I barfed, I realized it was there.
So they gave me some fluid IV to stop the drying effect for now. and cauterize the bloody nose culprit *OMG!!!!!!!! So painful!* I asked why they wanted to put a rubber bite stick in my mouth, because I told them nothing should be there if I have a seizure, and I didnt feel like I was going to have one. they said its because it muffles the screaming a bit. *No. I was still loud.*
So they told me basicaly to go home and keep taking my meds as per usual and drink more. if this "side effect" becomes intolerable at this dose, then they may need to change me to a new med, or lower the dose and add a second med. Luckily it was not "THE RASH!!!" but I still would have waited longer to go if I could have. But Chad had to be the jerk and drag me.
Argh. Im tired. and I honestly havent taken my meds all day. they didnt give me my 9am dose, until they knew it wasnt "THE RASH!!!" so I also didnt take it at 9pm. just didnt feel like it. I know *again* that I am not showing a very good example in here, but maybe if someone realizes that I am acknowledging my stupid behaviour as irresponsible, then they wouldnt do it. Some times I think being a bad example is a deterrent for others. That being said, I feel phenomenal without them!
So far... I could have that "super absorption" in my body, and won't notice until tomorrow. so in one day, I went from 150mg Lamictal + 25mg Lamotrigine (I had left over that I decided to finish before getting more) twice a day, to none. at all. and I dont feel a thing. I think that if I *or they* decide to keep me on this, then I will go back to generic. The problems only got worse once I took the brand name. maybe a reaction to another binder?
not sure what to do.
