I have focal seizures. I've been on lamictal, Keppra and now trileptal. Lamictal worked but I had a few break through auras, would drop things all the time and couldn't remember words or they would come out wrong. I also had no memory. It gave me horrible acne. I tried every medication the dermatologist gave me and nothing worked. My doctor switched me to Keppra. I had horrible mood swings. I was mean. I have 3 young kids and it wasn't fair to them to have a mom that yells all the time. Trileptal is working but I'm a zombie. I sleep all day. I have no memory. I forget my phone number, my kids birthdays. I'm constipated and just not living my life to the fullest. I tried to talk to my dr. She lowered my dose but no change. Now the kicker. I have been a stay at home mom for 7 years. My husband is laid off and I need to go back to work. Just thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach. I have horrible anxiety, always have. I can't remember simple things. I have a hard time organizing my thoughts now. I almost feel like someone suffering from ADD. I'm scared and I don't think I can do it. I'm so depressed. I just feel lost and needed to vent. Thanks for listening.